hello, anon | salia

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i'd missed my last update. i hadn't even been back on the website since i had text angele last week...how could i? how could i, in good conscience, keep talking to him if i had an idea of his true identity? 

it was absolutely eating me up inside, and i didn't know what to do. i just...i just needed a sign. something in the universe that would give me the slightest hint of what to do. 

was the right thing to ignore my suspicions? to ask him? 

maybe i was completely wrong! maybe he wasn't who i thought he was...maybe he'd feel violated if he thought i was trying to figure out his identity...because i wasn't! i had just...stumbled across a conclusion. that was all. 

i needed to talk to him. that was decided. it had been too long without him, and i did miss him a little. 

no, more than that. i missed him. throughout the last few weeks we had grown insanely close...and not communicating with him for the last week had been awful. i needed to sort this out with him. 

simon??

mj!! are you okay??? 

i've been so worried

i'm so sorry for ghosting, i've been so busy

don't apologise...i thought i'd scared you off :(

you never could, i promise

you mean that?

i do! but i do have to ask a question and i'm scared it may complicate our friendship

oh

what is it?

mj?

you don't have to answer this because it might come across as weird so i totally understand if you're not comfortable

what's going on?? you're scaring me

i know simon is probably a fake name...but from everything you told me it kinda matches up with you being simon aka simon miniminter from youtube

and i know i shouldn't have delved deeper but i was curious and idk yeah i just :/ didn't not wanna say anything

anyway you're probably gonna say i'm wrong or ignore me so i wanted to apologise. i'm sorry.

no, mj!! wait don't go

really?

let me write a blog post. i'll change the settings so just you can read it. give me some time?

of course :)