Some clouds don't rain

Chapter 16

Chapter 16

Hindi ko alam. Hindi ko alam kung baket sa lahat ng nangyayare sa aken sa kay Clave lang ako palaging natitigil sa gitna. I've spent  my time studying my disease. Restless nights of research, breakdowns and I even try to kill myself.

Everytime, I can tell what i feel, how everything goes in my sight. I can redirect myself all the damn time but to him I'm always lost in the middle. Sa gitna ng tama o mali. Sa gitna ng oo at hindi. It was him. At natatakot ako sa sarili ko na masanay na mawala na lang sa gitnang ispasyong iyon ng walang kasiguraduhan.

I will never be normal. Tanggap ko na iyon ngayon pero bakit ang saket kapag naiisip kong mapapagod din siya sa paghabol sa akin. No one is consistent at running. Titigil at titigil ka parin. Clave staying by my side until the end is so far from my truth. But I'm still clinging to this moment even my truth's already following me.

"You really made sure I won't forget my first date through your efforts, thank you...I like it." I whispered to him.

His scent is appealing. Iyon agad ang nasa isip ko habang nakapatong ang ulo ko sa dibdib niya. This position is normal for me before but now I don't know why It started to brought something into my stomach.

Tiningala ko siya and there I found Clave pouting.

"Tinulungan ako ni Crystal, thanks to her." ani Clave at tumingin sa aken na tila may hinihintay na reaksyon and I did.

Marahas kong inalis ko ang sarili palayo sa kanya.

"Crystal...babae...You and her in this iforest really? Are kidding me Clave?!" inis na sabi ko imbis na depensahan ang sarili niya sa sinabe kanina tumawa lang ito.

"Walang nakakatawa Clave! I'm having fun and you just ruined-" kinabig niya ako bigla palapit sa kanya kaya natigil ako sa pag-sasalita.

Mas humigpit ang hawak niya sa bewang ko. Ipinwesto ni Clave ang mukha sa leeg ko kaya nanigas ang katawan ko at hindi siya matingnan.

"She is Elvis's girlfriend. At kasama namin si Elvis. Hindi siya tumulong that's why I said It was Crystal who helped me." He explained.

"I want this date to be special that I need everyone's opinion to make it perfect. I was planning to brought you to a restaurant but Crystal suggest this dahil ganito raw palagi ang set up nila ng kapatid ko kapag lumalabas sila. And it seems that girls have the same taste because you like it." Mayabang niyang sinabi ang huli.
Inikotan ko siya ng mata.

"I like it because it's from you! Mali pala ako." Something comes over me that i feel so irritated at that girl's name.

"Don't be jealous. I never look at any girls the way I look at you. It's far different, Hebi." Bulong niya.

Ramdam ko ang hininga niya sa leeg ko.

"Right! Ano bang tingin mo sa aken?"
Our eyes met. I was electrified by the way his eyes look at me now. It hid no emotions. I can see it clearly. It was burning with passion for me.

"I saw you as my clouds, Hebi. As you pour your rain to anyone willingly. I was waiting for you to pour it all on me. I'm still waiting baby. I don't care if i'd drown on your fall because I accept you for whatever forms you made. Whether it's you on your dark times or grey. But I guess it's true that clouds don't rain all at once. You only pour some of you to me and I don't know why I get so into that." He said it without taking his eyes away from me.

My lips quivered. I can't come up with a word to say.

He smirk when he noticed my silence before stealing a kiss to my chin.