I'm upstairs sleeping with ac and I was having flashback of Dejuane raping me I thought my mind was just fucking with me and it just happened over and over then I woke up waking ac up
Ac: are you ok
C: I'm sorry go back to sleep I can't b in this room rn
Ac: are you good
C: ehh
I started walking down the stairs sweating like fuck and I seen Dejuane and my heart stopped and all I could think about is that day I started to have a panic attack on the floor tears just running down my face and I could almost feel it Then Dejuane ran to me trying to help but I just raised hell
C: leave me alone
D: what did I do-
C: Andre Andre Andre
A: what's wrong
C: that day Dejuane ra-
A: come on
Andre helped me off the floor and sat me on the couch and I was crying in his shoulder
A: ur going to b fine
Then I had this one flashback when Dejuane had his hand over my mouth and I was screaming and crying
I gripped andres legs tight asl
D: are you ok
C: definitely not
D: are you gonna tell me
C: bitch the day u raped me I'm having flash backs
I looked up and Dejuane and I could tell he was upset with himself
D: I know I say this a lot but I'm so sorry you kno id never hurt you
C: I kno Dejuane but you did it I'm not mad at you it's just the flash backs
Dejuane came up to me and hugged me tight asl
Then everyone else came downstairs and we acted like nothing happened
Ac: carissa look
C: what
He showed me an addy for a party in Malibu
C: so when we leave Cali they wanna throw a party
Ac: yes
D: you don't like partying like that
C: Cali is just different
Then someone was at the door and it was mar
Mar: when did U get home
C: today bc of the pandemic
Mar: I didn't know u were here but now that I know I got some for you
C: lemme see
He pulled out homemade edibles
C: say swear
Mar: knock ur self out
C: why did we break up again
Mar: bc I kinda
C: nvm thank you
Mar: is nae here
C: nah
Mar: ight I'll see I soon
C: ok
D: what is that
C: brownies hoe now move
I moved Dejuane out the way and sat on the couch and started eating and Ansley picked up the bag and smelt it
An: ohhhh lemme get one
J: is it-
C: yes
Me Justin Ansley and Andre started eating once we were out it started kick in
J: it's strong as shit
A: I'm the highest in the room
J: hope I make it out of here
C: she seen my eyes she kno I'm gone
An: is that even next
C: who knows
Ac came and sniffed the back
Ac: those were edibles why didn't u let me in on that hoe
C: u didn't ask
D: since when do U do edibles
C: ac put me on
D: ur changing and ion like it
C: ion give fuck
An: bitch she got her mind made up
Ac: lmfao I found my group
J: stonerrrssss
C: lmfaooo
Ac: y'all trying to get food then hotbox
C: hell yeah but I lowkey can't get off the couch DEJUANE
D: yes
C: can you get me off the couch
D: come on
Dejuane carried me upstairs and helped me get dressed then took me back downstairs and everyone was ready so we left go food and sat in the parking lot
Ac: rissa I got a question
C: mhm
Ac: will you finally b mine
C: about damn time sir yes
A: welp that deserves an extra fat blunt
Andre rolled a big ass blunt and we smoked and smoked and all we smelt was weed and food once we were done we went back home and busted through the door
C: ok bitches get the vodka
D: for
C: bc I'm not single anymore
D: can we talk about this
C: tmr bubba
D: ok
An: here hoe
Ansley handed me a shot and we drunk and drunk then i went upstairs and ac helped me shower bc he was somewhat sober and we went to sleep
Once I woke up I realized it was me and Derek day I gave ac a slight kiss took some Tylenol and went downstairs and jumped on Derek
De: what we doing today
C: idk But Dejuane wanted to talk so I needa do that
I went to the dining room and he was on tiktok
C: u wanted to talk
D: nvm have fun with Ac
C: what's wrong
D: ac is going take u from me
C: could never if u need me I'm here
D: alr
I gave dejuane a hug and went upstairs and ac was on his phone so I got on top of him
C: good morning
Ac: why is u on me
C: why are u touching my ass
Ac: gurl I asked first
C: I asked second
Ac pushed me down where my face was on his chest but I was still on him
Ac: wyd today
C: it's suppose to b me and dereks day but I wanna stay home
Ac: tell him
C: we could just watch movies
I called dereks name
C: is it ok if we cancel till tmr
D: ofc I'm busy anyways
Then Dejuane brought the kids in
And he was feeding the girls why the boys played
C: thank you
D: ofc call me if you need me alr
Dejuane left with the girls and I got off Ac
Ac:get back on
C: in a minute
I turned the tv on for the kids then I got on my phone scrolling through tiktok
Ac: get back on me ma'am
I got back on ac just looking at him
C: ok what do u need
Ac: you on me
C: anyways what are angel and Becky doin
Ac: angel went to beckys house and I guess he chillin der
C: boring shit lemme buy tickets to playlist
Ac: you right pay for mine I'll just cash app u
C: mhm
I payed for our tickets and ac sent me the money and I realized it was like in 2 days and I wanted to pack now but we had class in 5 mins
So I logged on and it was just directions so I logged off and got out my bed Picking up king and taking him tot he bathroom so I can change him then I took him downstairs and Dejuane was playing with Hennessy
De: did y'all buy tickets to playlist
C: yep
I: yeah
Mi: how is this gonna work an Airbnb
C: prolly instead of an hotel but I'm not paying
D: yes miss gurl
C: we can split
D: alr
Then Monroe called me
C: why is this bitch calling me
Ac: who
C: 1 how 2 look
Ac: go her her bae
*otp with Monroe 💕*
Roe: hey
C: hey
Roe: are you going to playlist
C: yeah why
Roe: is ac going
C: yeah
Roe: could you like hook me up with ac
I've never ended a call so fast
Ac: what she say
I made sure I did it in her voice to
C: could you like hook me up with ac
Ac started busting out laughing
C: and she going to playlist
D: say less
C: Boy get out my house
D: relax
Ac: Monroe is bad
C: no she dresses like a lil ass girl her and dem damn finger coils
De: HAHA dont do her like dat
C: I'm going back to sleep
Ac: why you acting like this
C: wym I'm good
I ran upstairs and laid on the bed
Ac: I don't want Monroe
C: good for you
Ac: why are you pissed bc you know I'm not
Leaving you
C: mhm can u call andre in here
Ac: sure
I waited for Andre to come then ac had to leave
Ac: gimme kiss
C: no
Ac: remember dat
C: oh I will
