Kay: hell hotter den a mf
C: ong
Ja: bitches we gotta go
C: ight let's go
Kay: we didn't pack shit
C: so fuck it
We left and got an Uber to the airport then we got on the plane to nc
Once we got there we got an Uber to my dads house and I had hella shit I left der so did the boys we chilled then we walked the streets filmed tiktoks met some fans and had a great time
2 days later
We were on our way back and I felt hella better
Mar: we landing in 5 mins here comes the toxic
C: plsssss
We landed and got an Uber back to the house
C: y'all ready
Ja: open the motherfuckin door
C: shit
I opened the door and everyone looked at me
C: la la la la imma act like they not staring at me
Ja: shut up la la la
C: what's yo problem
Ja: one bc we had to leave 2 mar wouldn't let me sleep
C: y'all niggas do tm
Kay: ong
Ja: one I'm tired bc what did we do for 2 days
Kay: we partied for rissas bday
Ja: exactly we had no sleep
C: suck it up bc we goin back out
Mar: plsss i dont want to see no more females poppin Pussy
C: just don't look
Then Dejuane came downstairs
D: hey ma
C: perv
D: anyways go upstairs Rq
C: uh ok
I went upstairs and Dejuane followed me and he locked the door behind him
C: what's this
D: your late bday gift
C: I see rose petals
D: get on the bed and take your clothes off damn
I got on the bed we did our thing and I showered but couldn't walk after wards
So I laid down with Dejuane while he played with my hair then mattia walked in
C: uh hey
Mattia: can we talk
C: I kinda can't get up
Mattia: I should have let you explain
C: go on
Mattia: I'm sorry carissa I don't think I'm ready for a relationship rn anyway
C: it's fine mattia
He left out the room and Dejuane kept looking at me
C:yes?
D: nothing why do you keep forgiving everyone
C: here we go
D: like fr tho
C: idk just like I always forgive you
D: fair point
C: mhm yeah
D: oh baby names
C: no let's not
D: well we are talking about it
C: whatever
D: what do you think it is
C: boy
D: Thomas
C: you and legends middle name
D: yes
C: mhm what about a girl
D: promise
C: promise is cute Thomas ehh
D: it's my son
C: get out
D: no
C: I pushed Dejuane off of me and turned the other way
D: are you mad
C: no
D: mhm
he wrapped his arms around me and I literally couldn't fucking breathe I felt like Harriet Tubman when she was running so damn fast on the underground rail road
C: Dejuane get the hell out of my bed ur suffocating me
I pushed him and he fell
D: uh that hurt
C: well suck it up
I went downstairs and went outside and my package was here I wasn't even worried that I couldn't breathe I just wanted to open it
I went back inside and sat on the floor
A:what's that
C: shut up don't talk to me
An: she's mad y'all forgot her bday I told her happy bday
Mattia: so did I
A: carissa
C: can't hear you
I opened it and I forgot what I ordered I opened it and it was 3 pens and carts
D: what you get
C: pens and carts
D: stop smoking at least for the baby
C: suck my asshole
D: what no
C: suck my dick choke and die on it
D: let's switch that around you suck my dick and choke on it
C: I literally just did that just not the choking part
D: so you gone act like you weren't *choking noises*
C: pls dejuane
D: carissa shush
An: bye cus I miss y'all tg
D: I don't
C: you kno you miss me
D: ik
An: GET BACK TOGETHER
D&C: not happening
An: wait why
D: bc I don't want to hurt her again
An: I've heard that too many times
D: but I'm fr maybe later on
C: he's my bsf that i fuck sometimes
Dejuane pulled me closer
D: yep
C: you and Mikey
An: don't start
C: bye bc y'all had a relationship like a married couple
An: ik but after des everything went down hill
C: he treats all your kids like his ANSLEY yk you want him
An: bye don't get me started
A: what
C: go send nudes to other females
Dejuane turned around and started to die laughing
A: your bitch ass is still onnat
D: that wasn't needed
An: ong
C:.....
A: is this bitch gonna say something
I reached in my pants
Ac: hell no
Ac grabbed me
C: release me asshole and Dejuane go upstairs I literally don't have time for you to kill someone today
Ac: and we don't have time for you to shoot him
C: let's go of me just here take it
He took the gun and held it in his hand and I was literally holding Dejuane bc he abt to beat the shit out of Dre
A: I'm so sick and tired of her shit
Justin: the star is here
An: carissa and Andre are fighting
Justin: alr bet Justin who u got ur money on
J: rissa
Justin: 50
J: alr
C: say that again I didn't hear you
A: I said I'm so sick and tired of your shit
C: ykw Dre
An: wait no no no no That's enough
Ansley took me upstairs with mattia and closed the door
C: I never did anything to him to talk shit it was a joke and ik he thinks everything he does it's for me but that's not the case I risked my life for him multiple times saved his life 6 times
Wether it was me killing someone for him or staying up with him all night bc he was suicidal
Nvm lemme not go there
I put my hood over my head and walked down
D: hey are you ok
C: I'm great actually
I had a smile on my face even if I wasn't ok
I went to the kitchen and Justin followed me
J: hey rissa
C: hi Justin
J: I'm I actually didn't forget you birthday I had a gift for you but u were gone all day and when u got back u were pissed so I didn't give it to you
C: really
J: no I really forgot but um here a gift I had made I was gonna give you on our anniversary since we met but fuck it
He handed me a locket with a picture of me and him on it
C: wait I love it
J: now turn around so I can put it on
He put it on and I gave him a hug
C: I love you
J: I love you too and sorry I forgot
C: it's fine
I finished talking to Justin and we both decided we needed a shot so we had one then we walked back into the living room and everyone was staring at me
C: Dejuane what did I do
D: idk I'm just blending in
C: thanks that helped a lot
J: uhh
C: Justin check me
J: uh ur good
C: ok soo...
D: omg I can't take it Andre was talking shit
A: can you ever shut up
J: just go upstairs b4 u start going off
C: no 2 my therapist is here
J: nigga that was Andre
C: keyword was
Then Kay walked through the door
C: he's here
Kay: uh here's a blunt edibles and snacks
C: preesh8 u
Kay: anytime I would stay but I gotta dip ida needs me
C: damn you down bad
Kay: shut up
J: that's your therapy
C: yes getting high
J: at least with Andre y'all can talk then get high
C: I like this therapy I tell him stuff then we laugh it off then get high Weed makes the pain go away
J: true
C: damn Andre what you staring at
A: uh carissa
An: here comes the apology
Andre took me outside and we sat on the steps
A: light the blunt first
C: ok I did
He apologized and we smoked and I had my other bsf back and we talked about our problems and we were high asf ofc we went back in the house
D: we all good now
A: yeah
An: yayyy the mushroom twins are back
C: i don't look like a mushroom he does
A: it's just my hair
C: byeeee
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