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i - r e g r e t - d r e a m i n g

why am i drowning

in the depths of unknown

i plunged myself into

and the risks

that were too big

to bridge?

i was only following

the melancholic singing

of my inner voice—

or was it your voice,

bleeding right into mine,

guiding me down

dark hallways to hell—

or was it my mother's voice,

planting morals in my mind

only to have my thoughts

grow to be weeds—

or was it just me

and my own voice

leading me to a hopeless heaven

and frail flowers,

hoping i'd find something new

waiting to be found and dived into

sitting inside of me

i took a risk with a side of laughs,

i reached for the stars

only to fall with just a handful

of regret

to stuff in my mouth

to muffle my sounds and my song—

the cries of wanting that led me here

all along

to this place of nothingness—

hollow in my heart—

that is a terrible cold

after the passionate fire

of taking a leap of dreams

love ya, as always,

mari