when loves around

the X-Factor

Now a year has passed, a beautiful year. Today is Zayn's audition on the X-Faktor. ai am so fucking proud of him. When we were on the way to the studio, I saw Zayn's hand trembling so I took it:
"Hey, you can do it. You don't have to be nervous. We will all be there."
He smiled really nervously and said:
"Thank you so much, guys. This means a lot to me."
I gave him a kiss on his lips and smiled at him. He stroked his hand through my hair:
"I'm so grateful for having you. I love you so much. Thank you for always supporting me."
I nearly cried.
"Babe, of course I will always support you. And i love you more."-
"That's not true, dumbass, we had that conversation yet."-
"Yeah, fuck you."
We laughed. I love joking around with him. It's great having the same type of humor.

After an hours drive, we arrived at the studio and Zayn was immediately taken to the ‚participant area'.
"Good luck, babe. I'll cross my fingers."
He gave me a long kiss and said:
"Thank you. See ya."
We were taken backstage and after ten minutes I heard the loudspeaker:
"Next up is Zayn Malik."
My heart was pounding. I was so excited. I looked at the monitor next to me and saw Zayn as he stepped on the stage. My thoughts were like:
"Oh my god. That's my baby. Go boy. I know you can do it."

He introduced himself and I saw how his hands were shaking. He was so nervous and absolute cute at the same time. Zayn sang the song ‚Let Me Love You' from Mario. His voice was so angelic and I literally started crying. After his performance, the jury said that he is very good and they want to see him again, which of course made me really happy and I screamed like I am crazy. I ran into Zayn's arms:
"You managed it! I told you. I'm sooo proud of you!"
We kissed and after that he hugged his family.
The next few weeks were very exhausting, but these also passed.

It was finally decision day. Zayn and many others stood on the stage, waiting to be called so that they could move on on the show. We were all very tense, exciting and nervous at this moment. Many different names were called out, but not Zayn.
Then Simon Cowell said the rest didn't make it. Zayn looked so disappointed and sad. When he came backstage crying I hugged him for a long time and wiped away his tears.
"Don't cry. Everything will be fine. We are all so proud of you, Zayn. I love you."
He smiled a little.
"I love you too. Thank you, for saying that, but I feel like I have failed."-
"No, you didn't. Not at all."
Everyone, who didn't get into the next round was brought back on stage.
"Welcome back. I am going to give five of you one more chance to stay here, because I know you guys have the potential for this show. Liam Payne. Harry Styles. Louis Tomlinson. Niall Horan. And Zayn Malik. You will continue here as a band. Take your chance."
Zayn beamed like he never did before and hugged his new band members. He's in a band now! That's so cool. Unfortunately, that also means I won't see him often for the next few weeks, but we'll be fine.

The band name was ‚One Direction'. I really liked the name and I was so excited about their first performance. They progressed round after round and became increasingly popular in the UK, but they also had fans all over the world. Almost everyone knew them, even though they haven't even won yet. I got to know the boys, too. They are all so kind and funny. I got along best with Harry and Liam, but I liked Niall and Louis, too. We always talked a lot before their performances. But mostly their management got in our way. I didn't like the management at all, but Zayn said:
"They are so only so strict, because it's the beginning and we're still on the show here. When this is over they won't be so strict with us anymore."
That calmed me down a little. I've hardly been home lately. I was always with Zayn and the boys and watched them rehearse. Their voices harmonized so well with one another. I'm so happy that Zayn gets on so well with them.

Two weeks later:
When I woke up in the morning, I was in a good mood straight away: Today was the final! I immediately got ready to drive off. I called Zayn on our way there.
"Hi, we left our house and are now on the way to you. I'll be there as soon as possible. How are y'all?"-
"Hi, babe. I'm glad to see you again soon. We are so excited for tonight. Louis and I can't stop dancing, haha. Fortunately, I am not alone. I didn't think the band life would be so exciting and fun. Oh, I have to quit. I love you."-
"And I love you. Bye."
A short time later we were finally there and I immediately ran into the room where the boys were rehearsing. When Zayn's saw me, he ran up to me and picked me up. I kissed him, but we got interrupted by the management. Again.
"Zayn! Keep going!"-
"Yes, I'm sorry. I'm comin."
I sat down on the couch and watched them singing their final song.
A few hours late I went back to the big hall, because the final is about to begin. It was a great show and an incredible experience to be up close to and personal with something like this. Them came the moment everyone has been waiting for. The announcement.
We held our hands and starred at the finalists.
"The winner of X-Factor 2010 is..."
I forgot to breath for a moment.
"Matt Cardle!"
The whole haul applauded, but I was pretty overwhelmed. My gaze wandered to One Direction. They seemed kinda happy to me, but also kinda sad. They looked at each other and hugged each other. Their first group hug after the final. At that moment I knew for sure that this was not the end of One Direction. Not at all.