Raindrops of Reality - [poetry]

existence

Over my head, I see the distant stars,
Life is but a whisper,
People come and people go,
Our existence defined by those we know.

Destinies forged as we follow our heart,
Too close to be near, yet so far apart,
Asleep, when nothing seemed to cross my mind,
Blowing like a leaf in green shadow.
Down the cliff behind the empty house,
The raven croak, following one another
into the depth of the night.

When silence passed the space behind,
When conversations echoed dry,
I stopped to contemplate why.
A pointless hollow deep inside
In a field of moonlight between two pines,
I lean back, as the night darkens and comes on.
I couldn't feel a thing at all.
I woke one day, and simply knew.

Some people battle the darkness with light from within
when all seems lost and there's no end in sight.
Hiding inside this mind of mine,
where I once danced imagined moves
talked with eloquence and of truth
I now sit solemn, not a sound
but screaming thoughts unheard, aloud
where I insipid inside reside,
they will return and will be worn
fatigued from battle with the sea
the battle to return to me.

I'm fine. But what does it mean?
A phrase said for years but usually meaning a lie.
A settlement for how something could be?
Or a false testimony for the way that I'm feeling?
I walk and get through each day.
I'm not wounded, I'm not dying, I'm just a little lost,
Sometimes I look at myself like a pile of dirt.
And am wondering why am I complaining?
So many people have it worse.
I'm not broken, I'm just missing a few pieces but
sometimes I just want to run.

I am alive! I am alive.
My mind no more can disprove than prove
what heart may feel and soul may touch.
Carpe diem they say,
I am glad to be alive,
I am glad to be surrounded by incredible people,
I am glad to live in comfortable conditions,
I am glad to be able to study,
I am glad to do the things I appreciate.
I am glad.
I am alive.
I am.

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