Eternal Pain

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They say life is short

But its the longest thing we'll ever have

And I feel that I've had enough of it already

For death since years I've been standing ready

But it doesn't come, its afraid or I am maybe

Nothing in this world ties me to the ground

I see no joy, no love, no care around

Yet its not like I don't receive these things, I do, a little

But I don't care for them, I'm brittle

Contradicting my own words, I'm mental 

Its not just age that makes you senile

What I'm trying to say, I don't even know

Why I feel what I feel, perhaps I'll never know

But I know what I feel, its all pain

And whatever I do, it comes back all the same

In this meaningless void space, why shall I go on

Why shall I push myself up and dust myself up, when I'm just a photon

Atom? Oh its all the same, you neurotic neutron

My living and my dying doesn't matter to the universe or to me

It matters to others but still it doesn't matter to me

"And do they and their pain matter to me?" is the question I won't ask

Cause the day I say no, could end up being my last.