Eternal Pain

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And there's some thought in my mind

That I can't express

And it goes beyond just saying that I'm depressed

It feels like I'm on a search or quest for something unknown

And the utter hopelessness of such a vain mission crushes me

Yet my mind doesn't find peace in the 'now' its been given

And since I don't look forward to the future, it isn't driven

I'm so pessimistic and hopeless, I don't know

Success might come my way but I'll still be clueless

For what's the point of anything if there's no happiness

What's the point of living if its so hard to smile

So hard to change, so hard to stay alive

So hard to deal with people, their truths and their lies

So hard to trust them to stand with you when they hear your cries

So hard to avoid falling into traps that make it harder to live

And so hard to express all this and expect one to understand

Why I don't like life, and why I'm falling into a quicksand.