Today I felt like I wanted a relationship
Something I always dreamed about
Something healthy and sweet
Wholesome and full of surprises
Something that molds it's way
Perfectly into my life
Yesterday I was indifferent
I enjoyed the concept of it
But I also enjoyed my independence
Knowing I can survive on my own
Brings me peace
But never being loved again
Makes me feel lonely
The day before that, I was repulsed
Completely fearful of it all
Im way too self conscious
Of my numb and abused heart
I see a future where I can be loved
But never be able to love again
I feel I have given too much
To a lover undeserving of it
Having not saved any left
For whom was to be next
I feel
Lonely
Scared
Terrible
T e r r i b l e
Today I wanted it
Yesterday I was indifferent
The day before that I was repulsed
Tomorrow?
I dont know
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My Scribble Thoughts
PoetryMy second official series of poems, starting from My Frozen Heart. Sometimes we all can't think clearly. Sometimes we all don't have the ability to organize the cluster of words and scribbled thoughts in our head. I'm here to try and do it for you...
