.This Feeling.

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Recap of the Last Chapter:

"You know, this is scary, I've never felt like this with anyone else, I'm afraid of getting rejected, feeling like no one wants me, the feeling of being alone once more. Jimmy you brought life and color into my world."

"Thank you for that, I owe you the world, I don't know if you will reject me, but I hope my confession changes your mind."

"Jimmy Kudo, Thank you for making me feel special.....I......I Love You."

I stopped talking as I quickly look down at my lap as I felt my heart beating like crazy, I didn't know what to do, I want to feel loved, please...don't take away my happiness. My eyes felt teary as I felt nothing, no movement, no breathing...I was scared. "Am I getting rejected?" I thought as I finally felt movement on the bed.

 "Am I getting rejected?" I thought as I finally felt movement on the bed

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"Y/n L/n, I Love You."

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I did it, I've finally confessed to Jimmy. I don't know what to do next, all the words that I wanted to say were gone out of my mouth.

That moment felt magical, of course, I wanted the confession to be special but times can change and not everything can go according to plan. 

All these years of having these feelings for him were out now, but...I don't know what to do next...

He said he loved

He told me himself that he did

So why do I have this feeling....that our love won't last long?

This weird feeling, I can't explain too well.

It's almost like a warning...as if it's telling me that I should be careful.

Careful of what?

I don't know the answer to that. 

I don't want to find out though...I'm scared.

I'm scared that everything we've all worked for was for nothing.

I don't want to feel this way, I want to be happy.

That's right, happy is what I should feel.

I need to push down the warning, it's most likely just my insecurities.

Right?

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No.

Whatever this feeling is, I can not ignore it.

I must not ignore it because this feeling could lead to something horrible.

Even though I've been threatened and I've been through tough situations...

I always find a way to get back up

because if I don't

Nobody else will.

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Tell me

Why must I have this feeling?

This dark void

I'm always surrounded by it

I can't escape it

I try but the more I try the more I drown in it

Why am I here?

Why has nobody saved me?

Am I all alone?

Is anybody really out there?

What happened to my parents?

Have I...

No

It's impossible

I will not be left alone

I will not suffer again

because...

I Must Live.

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To be continued

Hello everyone! I apologize for not uploading!

Again I have been busy but I needed a break from writing because it affected my heal negatively at one point and I just needed the break. Sorry for that.

I will continue to update soon, just please be patient with your author! Now, about this chapter, How do you guys feel about it? Is it...different?

Anyways! I will see you guys on the next update.

Until next time, Case Solvers!

Signed: (っ◔◡◔)っ ♥ Esme The Author ♥



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