𝐃𝐞𝐞𝐩 𝐃𝐞𝐬𝐢𝐫𝐞 [ 𝐍.𝐑. 𝐱 𝐟𝐞𝐦 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 ]

Chapter 4: unexpected morning

A/n: I used google translation for the russian words.
I excuse if they may be wrong.
If anyone knows russian they can gladly correct me so I will try to avoid further grammar mistakes.

---Y/n Pov---

The moment I didn't feel her pulse anymore since I sucked her blood out of her neck and my arms still wrapped about hers and I couldn't let go even when she begged me with fear, I felt how her last tears flowed down her face.
I couldn't move.
It felt like everything around me froze.
I didn't feel sad, neither regret.
The only thing I felt was pleasure.
A little smirk creeped on my face.

"We knew you would kill her".

That familiar voice echoed in my mind.
And when I stood up from Carol's dead corpse, I felt a hand on my shoulder.

"Well done солдат (soldier)", said a 
cold voice coming from behind.
I turned around and looked directly in the cold eyes of Johann Schmidt.

I felt how the ground got pulled away under me and then everything went black.

"CAROL", I screamed and yanked out of my sleep.
I felt someone rushing to me and held my face in their hands.
"Hey hey it's fine, you are safe", I heard someone saying and the couch was shifting next to me.
I gasped for air, sweat was streaming down my whole body.
I looked up and when I saw Bucky with a concerned look infront of me.
"Carol...I- I killed her", I said with trembling  voice and wanted to stay up up but Bucky pushed me gently back on the couch and pulled me in a tight hug.
He wrapped his arms around me while stroking my hair in comfort.
"No you didn't, she is alive I promise you she is fine", he whispered.
I pulled back from his hug to look at him.
"It was a nightmare, Carol is alive", he reassured with a calm tone.
"Is everything alright, do you want to talk about it?", he asked me with a soft voice.
I turned around to see where I was,
when I realized that I must have been fall asleep on the couch of the common room.
"Do you want a cup of coffee?", asking me.
"Yes please".
He stood up and went to the kitchen to prepare some coffee.
I stood up and checked my phone just to see that it was 6 a.m. in the morning.
The sun was already lightly shining through the windows.
I sighed in frustration and folded the blanket next to me, if I slept there then it shouldn't look like a mess.

When Bucky came back sitting next to me again and handed me the hot cup of coffee.
"Thanks", I said with a small smile.
He returned by smiling back.
We sat there for a while and sipping on our coffee, the warmth of the coffee comforted me, it was one of the things that really gave me warmth insidely.
It was a comfortable silence in the common room.
Bucky didn't force me to talk, he just waited patiently until I was ready to tell.

"Hydra..", I just said with an emotionless voice.
He looked up to me with a worried look.
"I just, I dreamed how I was with Carol in the room, I couldn't control myself, the next moment I was on top of her, she pleaded me to let her go and I just couldn't do it no matter what I tried", I explained with trembling voice.
I took a deep breath before I continued.
"The next second I stood up from her dead corpse and heard someone saying that they would knew I would kill her and calling me their солдат.
When I turned around to the voice he was already standing there...Johann Schmidt", I told him.
When I said his name, Buckys body tensed.
I sighed and buried my face in my hands.
When I looked down, I was dressed in some sweatpants and a hoodie. I furrowed my eyebrows and gave him a questioning look.
He noticed my confused gaze.
"Wanda changed your clothes, she insisted to help you out of your dress since you couldn't do it by yourself. I hope that's okey", he explained slowly.
"No it's fine".

The memories of last night returned back where they bombed me with bunch of questions even the ones when Sharon asked me about Hydra.

Then suddenly my eyes went wide when I realized something after his answer.
"Wait, only Wanda right?", asking to be sure.
"Yeah only her", he said slowly.
"Why?", furrowing his eyebrows in question.
"Nothing", I said quickly.
"What exactly happened last night?", I asked and tried to change the subject.
"Well, you were really wasted and we played truth and dare and 7 minutes in Heaven", he answered.