TW: eating Disorders
so some of you know this already, but i want to talk about it cuz some of you don't.
so some of you might notice that 99.9% of the time, i don't accept compliments. i say they're not true.
or i joke about disliking myself, or joke about being ugly or dumb or stupid-
yeahhhh it's cuz i actually think those things about myself.
i have low self esteem. like ughhhhhhh
which is why i put myself down so much
or at least try to-
because when i do it around my girlfriends or my friends they tell me not to, or say it's not true.
but yea, that's why i don't like eating, it's also what led to my low self confidence and eventually made me purge and starve myself, two things that i haven't done in a bit. i purged twice, but i starve myself more than that. sometimes it's not even on purpose.
but i'm working on it.
