One Week Later
For a week, Eira and I went on in that way - she would leave her bedroom door open after 7PM, when she knew that Jenny's shift had finished, and by the time that the entire household had gone to sleep, I would have slipped into her bedroom and would be sitting by her bed, holding her hand tightly as she drifted off. Sometimes, when she cried, I would hold her head to my chest and soothe her, but I always made sure that the door was left open so that what I was doing was proper and Eira's reputation would not be ruined should anybody catch us together.
I was exhausted, and on my way to take up my shift for the night when my father asked me to step into his study for a private conversation.
"But Jenny -"
"Can wait a few more minutes, James." My father bowed his head, speaking lowly, "this is important."
When he had that tone of voice, I knew that he was serious. I nodded in understanding and let him take the lead as we walked to his study.
He sat down in his chair behind his desk, a fire blazing in the large fireplace behind him. He gestured to a chair in front of his desk for me to take, and I did, not seeing fit to argue with him.
"Ye'll no doubt ken that I have been exchanging letters with a family member of ours in Paris these past few months?"
I hadn't known that, but I nodded anyway. "Aye." I paused, "cousin Jared, is it?" He was the only family of ours that I knew of whom lived in Paris.
Father nodded, "aye. He has a townhouse close to the university -"
Ah. I knew where this was going.
"I canna leave Lallybroch."
"It's only for a year -"
"I can't leave Scotland." I paused, "ye need me in the fields, and Eira needs me here -"
"Eira will be fine without ye, she was before." My father frowned, "James, ye canna turn opportunities down because of Miss MacCraig -"
"Eira." I corrected him because to me she would never be anything else. "And I can. I left her once before, and it hurt us both. I willna put her - or myself - through that again -"
My father sighed, "James, I didna want it to happen like this... but ye dinna have a choice." He paused, "and Jenny and I will be here for Eira whilst ye are gone."
That wasn't good enough for me. I had to be the one here for Eira, but I knew that I had no choice in the matter. Whilst I was a man myself, my father was laird and I had to do whatever he willed of me until a time came when he was laird no longer.
So that meant that I had to go to university in Paris and that I had to be separated from Eira once more... and that also meant that I had to tell her that she was to lose one more person. I hated my father for making me go, and I hated myself because there was nothing that I could do to prevent my leaving.
I sighed and hung my head, looking at my tartan.
"When do I leave?"
"Saturday next." That was only six days away. My heart sank.
I had thought that I would have a little more time to say goodbye to my home, to Jenny and to Eira. I thought that I would have some time to prepare the speech that I would give to Eira; about how when I came back and she had recovered a little from the shocking death of her father, we would truly spend some time together, and hopefully, things would go the right way for us. But instead, I had a matter of days until I left, and that meant that I had to break the news to her as soon as possible.
"Ye're excused."
I stood up and left the study without another word to my father. I had to take over from Jenny, and then I had to think of how to tell the only girl that I had ever loved that I had to leave her once more.
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𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐖𝐞 𝐂𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐁𝐞 | 𝐉𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐞 𝐅𝐫𝐚𝐬𝐞𝐫 ✅
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