STOP IT!... please. Draco ff

9: breakdown

After me and Draco cleaned up a bit and he gave me his underwear hoodie and jeans to wear we went down to join the others for the game. Honestly I, a 5ft anorexic girl, looked quite ridiculous in my, 6ft muscular, boyfriends clothes. I folded the skinny jeans, which hung off me loosely, halfway up my calf so they stopped at my ankle. And the hoodie, I only wore with my bra underneath, swallowed me up to my knees.
Draco: "you look adorable"
Y/n: "I look ridiculous, can't I leave off the jeans at least you can barely see them anyway this hoodie is so big"
Draco: "I don't want anyone looking at what's mine"
Y/n: "I was wearing a miniskirt all day this is twice as long as that, and you owe me for cumming on my school shirt"
Draco: "it wasn't me that squirted on your skirt though was it"
Y/n: "it was your tongue that made me squirt though"
Draco: "okay I love how sensitive you are to my touch, you can leave off the jeans but stay on my lap the whole evening"
Y/n: "hehehe thank you daddy" oops that kinda just slipped out, Draco smirked
Draco: "mmmh come on before you turn me on again"
Y/n: "yes daddy" Draco growled and grabbed my ass as I walked towards the door making me squeal. He kept his hand under his hoodie gripping my ass through his boxers until we walked into the common room.

Blaise: "there's the noisy couple!"
Y/n: "wha-" I cut myself off as red seeped into my cheeks
Avery: "have a nice time in there 'babygirl'" she teased. I on reflex punched Draco's arm
Draco: "what did I do!?"
Y/n: "I don't knowwww" everyone laughed at me and I hid into Draco's chest
Theo: "fine we'll leave you alone before your face burns off come sit down so we can start"
Blaise: "yh we've been waiting more than the few minutes you said you'd be"
Draco: "I have to deal with her, the she got turned on and I got turned on would you rather have us here horny"
Avery: "true, wait what do you mean deal with something? Deal with y/n? Omg did you do some kinky shit!?"
Y/n: "Avery!!" Draco slapped my butt lightly hinting to everyone without saying it what we were doing
Blaise: "okay okay we already heard enough sit yourselves down fast" we did what he said and he got out a board game called game of life, each of us helped assemble it and pick out and place our pieces.
Theo: "what the hell!?"
Everyone: "what?" We were all taken a back from his sudden cry
Theo: "y/n what on earth happened to your hand??" I suddenly became quite self conscious and retreated into Draco's chest hiding my hands with the sleeves of his hoodie.
Draco: "she got ill from a tearpond, but it's healing now don't pay attention to it"
Theo: "oh right, sorry if I was a little blunt y/n"
Y/n: "oh it's fine you just caught me off guard that's all"
Draco: "wait baby you didn't take your med at lunch"
Y/n: "oh yeah I left it in your room I'll go get it" I went quickly and took the medicine but when I returned there was a strange tension in the room. "Did something happen while I was gone?"
Draco: "no darling sit down let's start the game" little did I know when I sat up recent scars were revealed on my thigh which is what caused the strange tension.

Throughout the next week I was getting better at eating during mealtimes and Draco was proud of my progress but little did he know the only reason I ate slightly more was because every evening I would take the courira potion and run round the sports grounds for an hour until it wore off and I almost collapsed. I also felt super guilty about making Draco think I was better and my urges to self harm kept coming back increasingly stronger. And to top it all off there was a strange tension between the group whenever I was there, Draco and Avery seemed unchanged if we were on our own but the others changed whenever I entered the room. It was almost unnoticeable but my general anxiety highlighted it easily and soon the voice convinced me it was because I was bad to be around because I was ugly and uninteresting. Tonight I was having a full mental breakdown, I was in bed it must've been about 2 in the morning and luckily Pansy was asleep otherwise she would've heard my poorly disguised hyperventilating from the worst anxiety attack I'd had in months. Honestly everything that was going on were just excuses I just needed a reason to let myself fall apart since I'd gotten so mentally exhausted.