Nobody Cares Anyway (Identity Fraud)

Why must it be this way? (James)

Art at the top ain't mine lmao))
TW: mild cussing, degration(not sexually)

So I have two crushes.
I know what you're thinking. You're thinking: "tHaT's SlUtTy, JaMeS!" But I assure you that I'm no slut. I just really like two of these guys, but they despise eachother or I'd ask for a poly relationship. So let's talk about these guys. Ralph is a cool guy but he's not exactly..nice. He's rude and has no respect, but my gOd he's hot. Fraud is a complete sweetheart. C'mon, that guy's sweet as sugar! He just doesn't like me, and I see why. I stick around Ralph. Ralph makes me feel protected. He told me Fraud did many bad things, but it doesn't really seem true..

He's here. I hug Ralph. He barely even hugs me back. "Hi, Ralph."
"Hi, dumbass." He muttered. Wow, very nice introduction, Ralph. He shoves me down. I get back up with a sigh. "Please don't do That."
"Yeah, Yeah. Quit being a baby, James. Grow up."
I shut my mouth. Did he think I was acting like a baby? Am I acting like one? I must be. I'm so stupid. He's always right. He's always been right. I twitched slightly.
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..
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"James, you're acting off."
"..."
"I mean, I don't really care, but still."
"A-...Alright." I clenched my fists. He didn't care? Of course he didn't care. He shouldn't HAVE to care. I don't matter and I Never Will, Just like Ralph says.
"WAKE UP!"
"Sorry, I'll act better!"
"Good."
Why are things this way? Because I started getting slightly greedy. I started wanting money to support my sister. Alice means a lot to me, and she cares. She shouldn't care at all. I barely do enough. I don't do much at all. I go to work. TLH(The Last Hurdle) greets me with a handshake.
"Welcome back, James. How was your vacation?"
"I felt like I hardly did anything." I softly chuckled to make it seem like a joke. I wasn't joking. I barely do anything.
"I hope you're thinking better of yourself."
I'm not. I feel a lot worse. I continue work until it was time to go. I did my paperwork and didn't go to sleep.