TW, mentions/talk of suicide.
1st person pov;
Is it really worth going on? I mean- there's nothing really here for me. I don't fit in here, yeah I have Valentino but that's it. My mum's dead, dad's dead. I love Val but can I really go on?
I've been asking myself this for a long time now, I honestly didn't think I'd make it past 14-15. I'm so broken- I can't be fixed. I want to be happy and good for him but how can I do that when all I can think about is suicide? Is that selfish of me? What the fuck.. am I really thinking that my emotions and feelings are selfish right now. I'm a fucking wreck. It can't be helped I guess.
I was a very anxious kid growing up, always afraid to go home because my mother was very abusive or I was afraid to go to school because I didn't have any friends because I was 'different'- I can see what they mean now. With calling me different that is- I'm quiet, stupid and gay. I hate it.
I'm so broken it hurts but I think it's starting to numb a bit.
Enjoy.
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