Counting Stars

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"You both know I'm only 13" Avery mumbles, looking over at zach and I, clearly irritated.

"Someone's jealous" I sing song, earning a scowl from my younger cousin.

Avery is into... Zachs type of style, emo, goth, whatever the fuck you wanna call it.

They both get bullied, that's probably how they made conversation..

Ok, don't call me a creepy as stalker, but I did listen In on Avery and zachs conversation, just to see how he gets on with little kids.

A times I was happy they could relate, but at other times I could hear zachs voice cracking and I so badly wanted to burst open the bedroom door and comfort him.

I know zach needs me, and I need him.

But that's the thing, zach has no one he trusts besides me, that much is obvious, that he has major trust issues.

Not like MAJOR. but major.

There's still a shit load I don't know about zach, iv asked things a million times yet he says he will tell me one day, hell if I didn't read his file that day I highly doubt I would know what he was in for.

"I love you so much" I murmer, placing my forehead against zachs, causing him to smile.

"I love you to"

"Am not jealous" Avery snaps, but I ignore her, putting all my focus on how perfect zach is.

He is just so perfect, after every thing he went through, he still has his sanity and cares for others, that's a lot to admire, I mean he doesent care or a lot of people, but at least some.

I know for a fact zach has tried suidcide before, it was one of his nightmares one night, he doesent Rememebr, but he ended up breaking down, and the next morning, he was clueless to the previous night.

"I seriously fucking love you, so much" I say, even though I just said it.

Zach smiles faintly, "I know. and I seriously love you so fucking much to"

I giggle and he smiles.

God his smile just makes my day.

"Merry christmas" I try, seeing if he will return the gesture.

"Nope" zach says, "I still hate christmas"

"Why" Avery butts in.

"Go away avery" I half snap, noticing zach is now staring blankly at the ground.

"Fuck you" she mutters.

"Wow" Mikey mutters, "never heard a 10 year old talk like that..."

"I'm 13 for your information, what are you 40" she snaps at mikey.

I can't help but laugh, zach lightly smiling.

"No, I'm 16, three years older than you" he says to Avery.

She scoffs, "wow three years"

"Exactly so that means-"

"Just shut up Mikey" zach sighs, shooting his brother a look to just drop it.

Mikey sighs, rolling his eyes, "I'll be with jake.." he mumbles.

"Dinners in 20" I call, he gives me a thumbs up from behind and with that, he's gone.

"Well that was intresting" I smirk, directing my attention to my little cousin.

She rolls her eyes, crossing her arms and letting out a childish huff.

"Is he always that rude?"

"Nah, usually that's how zach is" I joke.

"Hey" zach pouts, playing fake hurt.

"Just speaking the truth..."

"Ya, ok, I'm usually a grumpy douche like Mikey over there, and your usually a flowery princess" he smirks.

"Can't argue there..." Avery mumbles, yet again butting in.

"Am not" I snap playfully at zach.

"Ooh I can call you prissy princess" he laughs.

"Ok, fuck you first off" I growl, "I am not prissy"

"I know, I'm kidding babe" zach sighs.

Holy fucking shit. the day has finally come.

"Did you just call me babe?" I ask, surprised at his bold move.

Zach pales slightly, "I-I just t-thought-"

"No, you thought correctly, I love that" I admit, grinning widely at zach, who smiles In relief.

"I'm going to go get my jacket..." zach mumbles, noticing people now entering the room.

I nod, offering him a small smile.

I'm not going to pretend I'm not upset zach cut again, I just don't Want to think about it to the point where it ruins my day, so I will push it to the side until later.

Zach comes back with his jacket zipped up, looking more relieved.

I know zach where's the jacket for more than the reason that he cuts.. Over the past 2 months iv known zach iv learn to realize he's self conscious.

Like, very self conscious, he barley looks in mirrors, he's always wearing a jacket, covering his face with his hair and such.

He's so different from when I dated ryan..

Ryan was so confident, so self obbsorbed, I abousley hated his ego, that's one of the things I don't miss about him.

But he did do very romantic things, for example, bringing me flowers, sendings good morning texts every day, noticing