Firm Tenacity (The Athletes #3) COMPLETED

Chapter 6

Chapter 6

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Since the athletic meet was already finished, I focused on my studies. I am really serious about studying because I think I need to have a good educational background if I really want to live the life I want in the future. My class standing is consistent. Top 1 ako simula kindergarten.

I am one of the people who believe that education is really vital in one's dreams. It will help you achieve your dreams with quality. But sometimes, it also depends on luck. May mga tao na kahit hindi nakapag-aral, may nakamtan. It's also a matter of attitude, I suppose.

Bumukas ang pintuan ng kwarto ko. I was on my study table so I didn't see who it was quickly.

"Enesi, maayos ba ang closet mo?" boses ni Mommy, hanggang sa nakita ko na siya nang buo.

I shrugged with my pencil on my lips.

"I don't know, Mom... I haven't checked it yet."

Hindi ko napansin kung maayos ba o magulo ang damitan ko. May closet ako rito sa tabi ng kama, at may walk-in-closet sa harap ng banyo ko. My closet here is fixed, hindi ko lang alam sa walk-in.

"I'll check it, then. Aayusin ko na rin. Wala ka bang lakad ngayon?" she asked while walking in my walk-in-closet.

Binaba ko ang lapis at sumunod sa kan'ya. "Wala po. I am studying."

"You won't study with Mina?" she asked and sighed upon seeing my walk-in-closet.

"Hindi po. May pupuntahan silang pamilya," I said, and I noticed that she was freezed for some seconds. "Ako na rito, Mommy... Wala rin naman akong ginagawa."

She chuckled. "Ako na, Enesi. I don't have anything to do either."

Hinayaan ko na si Mommy. Naupo ako sa isang hammock doon at inabala ang sarili ko sa aking iPad. Sometimes, my Mom would ask me random questions. Sinasagot ko naman. She didn't ask any personal questions.

I was staring at her while she was busy folding my clothes I don't usually wear since I'm always in the house. Ibenta ko kaya? I could donate it somewhere...

I scrolled on my facebook and I saw a lot of posts from Crisanta. It was the time when they went to Boracay to unwind. Wala ako roon, pero nandoon si Mommy. They were all happy, but at that time, I was stuck inside my room, bored.

Dati, naisip ko na hindi gusto ni Mommy na maikasal kay sir Rigor, pero patagal nang patagal, natanto ko na siguro gusto niya rin. She's happy with him now, just like she was happy with my dad before.

"Mom..." I called.

"Yes?" she asked sweetly while putting my clothes inside the cabinet.

I gasped for air. "Why did you... marry again?" A question I've been asking myself since then. Ngayon ko lang 'to naitanong kay Mommy, dahil gusto ko sana ay kusa niyang sabihin sa akin kung handa na siya...

"Okay lang kung hindi mo masagot, Mommy... I was just wondering," bawi ko dahil sa tingin ko hindi pa siya handa.

She was silent while working again. I thought she really wouldn't answer me...

"At first, because of convenience, and because of you..."

That made me confused. I understand the convenience part, but the part that she said it's because of me... I couldn't comprehend how... Paanong para sa akin? When in fact, the only thing that the marriage gave me is pain... and insecurity?