Thought Abyss - Lost In My Head

If I die today

if I die today

my blood making kaleidoscopic patterns on the sheer white snow,

just know,

this is the only color I see other than my tricolor

if I die today

my legs falling apart and my face pale as glue

don't forget my other shoe

have mercy on me as you box me up.

if I die today,

my clothes ripped and torn, do not worry

do not hurry

for I know I will be clothed in my flag

if I die today

I will die knowing that I am not one man, but 1.38 billion hopes

who like ropes,

are ties together like the rakhi around my wrists.

if I die today,

with the enemy's intentions entering my body in the form of a bullet

look at my bullate,

and it will tell you it's the closest anyone has been to my heart in days.

if I die today,

my feet stopping in their tracks, swollen and rock hard

talk to my guard,

and tell it that though I have let it down, it can't let my motherland.

if I die today,

don't cry don't weep, smile with a head held high, and talk to my mom

ask her to be calm,

tell her to be proud and not worry and know that I died in the arms of my mother

if I die today,

let the world know I'm not gone, my love for my country is not gone

just hold on,

I will be back to serve again.