Thought Abyss - Lost In My Head

pandemic

(you can hear the spoken word slam from the link/video on top!)

I've been in my house for 100 days now,

Slowly losing answers to where, when, and how.

I want to run and laugh under the Sun

Is it bad I still want to have fun?

When the pandemic began, I remember joking.

'I feel stuck like Anne frank' I said

And the past couple of months I've scarcely left my bed.

It's honestly overwhelming how much has changed,

Between masks and sanitizers, our reality has ranged

It seems so long ago when everything was alright

This Almost feels like a never-ending night

"You have so much time to be productive "

"Make a movie" "write a book" "finish a course"

I've never felt this stressed over a single source

Trust me, I don't want to just complain

All I want is for this time to not go in vain

Between news of deaths And separation

And multiple breakdowns and panic attacks

Subtly we're all paying back humanity tax

When life feels like a sci-fi movie

In this time, in this age

Growing up is outright strange

Wake and sleep in the curfew

The sirens blare, that's our cue

All over the tv, news on spike in deaths

The fear instilled in every single breath

Each passing day

Reality alters in yet another way

Love is in the glove,

handshakes aren't formal

Namaste and work from home are the new normal

Amongst the uncertainty And chaos

I feel privileged for a roof and some food

And for the people who accept the variations in my mood

I'm not going to lie not going to deny

the pandemic is taking its toll on me,

Bringing out my bottled insecurities you see

But also it's restoring my faith in humans

While finding new ways to live and heal

We've found new ways to connect And feel

Staying at home, we've learned so much

To mediate listen speak and create

And realized there's more to us than mere fate

And With us away from being the hinder

The fauna claims property rights forcefully gotten

And mother nature blooms in colors forgotten

Time is going by, slipping from our hands

And still, some of us don't know where our loyalty stands

But at least We've learned to thank our health workers

Who are on a mission to save us

Working day and night without a fuss

I've met my family more than my shadow

And despite everything going on, I feel at rest

I may not be winning this race, but I'm trying my best

And with all the pros and cons weighed

I know I want to do my part

Stay at home, even when it means staying apart

Sometimes I'm going to be fine, Sometimes it'll break my heart

But it will be worth it, we'll all have a fresh start.