Aru Shah One-Shots

Trust Me

Trigger Warning: Suicide 

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Even though all those things happened, I'm still lost. I don't know where to go, and it's not getting any better. I-I'm still young. So, I don't know. I don't know where I am right now. I look out the window, the rainy weather makes it darker, so I think more. I look around my room. Filled with books, a poster, and my bed. If only I had someone here with me right now. But they're so far away. As I lean on the window, I hear, and feel the rain. I just want to close my eyes. I want someone to tell me that it's okay. I want to trust someone again. But I feel like I can't anymore. Not after what happened.

I had people who were there for me whenever I was struggling. Or when I felt frustrated. And when nothing's easy, I feel like I can't think at all. I remember her exact words: 'It's been a while, Mini. Why not rest here? You're always so busy. You're overworking yourself. You do know that you can take a break, right?' I want to take a break, but I can't. Visions of what happened keep flashing in my mind. Mom asked me to come to the store with her earlier, but I told her no. I just want to lay down in my room. I don't want to go out in this weather.

I look out the window, and the streets are quiet. It is like everyone knew what happened to them. And now, I'm locked up with more thoughts. What if I held the shield longer? What if I didn't listen to her? What if grief didn't overtake me? What if I had comfort when I needed it? What if I didn't overwork myself?All these questions swarmed in my mind. If only my friends didn't live so far away. But, I have the portals! I could just go to whoever's house I want to. But, their parents are grieving right now, and I don't think anyone would want to see me after what happened. I leaned my head against the window again, eyeing the rope and chair that were in my room. I could now feel and hear the rain again. If only I could close my eyes, and they would be here with me again. If only they could tell me that it's okay, even though it's not.

I wish that I could smile more, even though they're gone. I wish I could have more courage, even though they're gone. I want to keep being happy, cheerful. But I can't. I've been dealing with overwork, my sleep schedule is messed up, and I have even more anxiety. The other Potatoes would be scolding me if they were here, telling me that I shouldn't overwork myself, and get more sleep. Now the rain sounded faint. I could no longer hear, or feel it as much. It felt so far away, just like the Potatoes. If only they could come here right now, and comfort me as I close my eyes. Telling me that it's okay. Telling me that I can trust them.

I eyed the rope and chair again. I got out of bed and stood the chair up. I stuck the rope to the ceiling, and made a hole big enough for my head. I exhaled and got a piece of paper and a pen. I wrote:

Dear Family,

You more likely heard about what happened to the Potatoes already. And you know that I'm not dealing with it well, right? Well, to put you out of your misery, I'll put myself out of it first. I like listening to rain. You know why? Because it's calming, and it reminds me of the tears I need to shed, but don't.

A teardrop falls onto the paper.

I'll miss the family gatherings, showing our relatives Dee Dee, and hanging out with the Potatoes, even though they won't see this. Because in case you forgot, they all died. Because of me. The Otherworld, and probably their guardians hate me now. And the Council more likely does too. Because I caused the reincarnation of the Pandava brother's deaths. I'll always ruin everything, like I've heard you say to my brother. Also, tell him that I know about what's under his pillow. I know, this is a weird letter, but I just want to let you know that I'll always love you. And I'll say hi to Dad for you.

Love you,

Yamini ♡

I fold up the letter and place it beside the chair. I stand on the chair, and put my head through the hole of the rope.

"I'll miss you, family." I say, tears rolling down my cheeks. "I'll miss you, Aru's mom, Brynne's uncles, Aiden's mom, and Sheela and Nikita's parents." I take a deep breath. "I'll miss you, books. Germs. Who knew that I was going to die so soon?" I swallow. "Goodbye, everyone. See you, wherever we go when we die. And hello Potatoes, and Dad. I'm going to see you now."

I tightened the hole around my neck, gasped, then everything went dark.

I feel my soul leave my body. I look back to see my hanging body. All the color faded from my body. I grin, and go up to the sky. Where there will be no more troubles, sadness or fear.

I was going to see them.

And, I miss you already, Mom.

And I already miss you too, Max.

I can see you Dad.

I can see you already, with open arms.

Like this, so trust me (이렇게 So trust me)

~EL FIN~

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My heart hurt so much writing this. I'm so sorry for the sad one-shots. I've been writing so many sad ones to the point where I can't even write fluff. So, um, sorry for the sad one-shot, and I hope you enjoyed reading (?). (Word count: 1,011)

P.S, if anything in inaccurate, I didn't do my research on the thing, I just couldn't.