His Devious Smile [Na Jaemin] 2

36. Leave me alone

Y/n: My mind is a mess and it’s fucked up! I can't think straight! My mind is losing control and I just want to fucking die and stay alone!

Jaemin: *hugs Y/n* Listen, I might be the only one knowing your pain but don’t say bad words like that. Your parents wouldn’t like it if you said something like that

Y/n: *exhales deeply* I hate you. It’s weird cause I used to love you. How are you able to make me feel so much bullshit at the same time?

Jaemin: the same time you made me feel like a good human and made me change *smiles*

Y/n: Heachan….gave me a warning. Is it because he doesn’t see you change?

Jaemin: He does that to test if anyone would change their mind loving me just because of hearing my friend talk shit about me

Y/n: I fucked up the test, thank god *scoffs*

Y/n: How do you even know anything about me?

Jaemin: I saw you before you saw me. I was looking at you the whole time you were looking at your messed up future back then

Y/n: I hate everyone and everything *punches Jaemin’s stomach*

Jaemin: Trust me when I say I understand who you feel. Losing both of your parents and then trying to change your whole world is harder than anything.

Jaemin: I know it cause we are both at the same point in life *exhales deeply*

Y/n: why did it have to be us?

Jaemin: I won't say losing our beloved one was a good thing but it made us a better person.

Jaemin: The guys have helped me even if I never let go of my past until I saw you. You on the other hand didn’t tell anyone, since everyone was so clueless

Y/n: Why is it so important for anyone to know?

Jaemin: *slaps Y/n’s head* Shut up! We both you are deeply hurt and angry so if the friend you trust knew it they would help you more than you think

Y/n: Have you heard of trust issues? I have them on another level

Jaemin: forget them for now. I know everything, then why do you push me away? Let out your anger and pain in front of me. I will-

Y/n: be there? No, Jaemin.*pushes Jaemin away*

Y/n: Everyone says that and I know people mean it but they don’t do it. I am complicated and I managed to fuck up my own life *walks away*

Jaemin: Y/n! come back!

Renjun: Why are you screaming “Y/n”?

Jaemin; *sighs* because I fucked up

-Time skip to the end of the game-

Author’s point of view- Locker room
Mai: Where are you going?

Daxia: I even came to play for the team

Y/n: I am not staying here for as long as I thought

Alia: Why?! We were going to enjoy ourselves at the festival

Kate: Girl- are you upset from this morning?

Y/n: I don’t care *exhales deeply* I don’t like the festival

Youngil: Why are you lying? You love it! You attend it each year

Sarah: Is it because Jaemin is there?

Y/n: I told you I don’t care about him or anyone. Is it hard to leave me alone!? *slams the door*

Mizuki: Bruh1 What’s wrong with that girl? Anger issues on another level

Alia: if she is feeling bad then leave it, why speak like that?

Star: Maybe she just wants t some space to think *sits down*

Kira: I think she has a lot on her mind. Let her be

Mai: is the good enough? What if she really wanted us there

Daxia: Attention seeker *rolls her eyes*