When Lightning Strikes Sixx: A Tommy Thayer & Nikki Sixx Story)

Chapter 11-See What You've Done! Pushed Too Far (Eric Singer POV

A/N: Here's where things really start to get interesting!

Another month has passed and things between Nikki and Tommy have really gotten...well strange & the same, worse and all at the same time. They haven't 'talked' to each other, though it kind of seems they want to. Let me explain the strange part of what's going on or has went on between Tommy & Nikki. Nikki can't take his eyes off Tommy and seems almost...sad really. Sad, hmm if I didn't know better...There's that and the fact that wherever Tommy is, Nikki is sure to be, and he STILL gets jealous even though he & everyone else knows that Mick Mars & I are a couple. Things have gotten worse in that; Poor Tommy & his morning sickness hasn't gotten any better. It doesn't help that not only there's the stress of the tour, but there's also Nikki himself and Tommy keeping from Nikki that he's going to be a father. Nikki as much as I hate it, needs to know. There's two more months of the tour left and now Tommy is two months pregnant and as much as Tommy hates doctors for his sake, I made him go this morning....and we found out something, interesting.

"Tommy, you have to go! I know you hate doctors, but you must make sure the baby is ok! Your morning sickness hasn't gotten better, and God knows all the stress you've been under hasn't helped. Please, you're my brother and best friend...come on, let's go.", I plead with Tommy as I hold his hair back as he finishes heaving in the toilet. Mick is waiting in the room sitting on the bed...

"Ugh.... f-fine...this sucks you know. Like really sucks.", Tommy croaks out as I help him up and he rinses out his mouth with mouth wash and proceeds to get freshened up as I turn my head and we head back into the room, where Mick looks concerned.

"Come on babe, let's go...", Mick nods still looking concerned at Tommy's state: very pale and like he hasn't slept in years, which is kind of accurate in a way.

We exit the room quietly, making sure the coast is clear.... oh, everyone knows Tommy is pregnant, except the father. Tommy wants very much to avoid Nikki and yet not at the same time...

The three of us arrive at the doctor's office and they do the usual stuff like check tommy's weight etc....and before we know it, we're back in the ultra-sound room....

Exposing his stomach, my eyes widen....it looks bigger than it should...and it appears we're fixing to find out why...

"Well Mr. Thayer, despite all the stress you've been under everything looks healthy, but here...", the monitor is turned towards us & we see THEM. There are two small shapes outlined in black & white...two...which means.... "It appears that you're carrying a set of twins, now let's hear the heartbeats."

Tommy nods, but tears are streaming down his face and two strong sounding thump-thumps...the heartbeats are heard....and with out realizing, Tommy breathes out, "I wish Nikki was here to see this."

Photocopies of the ultra-sound are made, and we quietly make it back to the hotel...where it is insisted tommy try & rest before we must get ready for soundchecks and all that....

Currently, I am in the dressing room by myself...I wanted to get ready early, I have plans before our set tonight and they involve confronting one Nikki Sixx. All this shit has gone one long enough, Tommy has suffered more than enough, and Nikki needs to man up & confront his feelings or whatever and I am going to drop some bombshells on him. It takes me an hour to do my make-up and get in full regalia, I kill time until Motley's set ends and wait in Nikki's dressing room, arms crossed.

The door finally starts to unlock, and I scowl, this WON'T be pretty.... but it needs to be done. Nikki looks startled to see me and gulps...

"Sit down Nikki...NOW!" I point to a chair, and he hesitates for a second... "I said NOW!" Reluctantly Nikki does so, looking scared out of his wits.

"W-What a-are you doing here Eric?" Nikki stammers.

"Oh, you know what I'm doing here Sixx, take a good guess.... Ok, Fine.... I'm here because of Tommy. Do you have any idea or give two fucks about how you've treated him this whole tour?! Do you know how hard it's been on him?! DO YOU?!! First, you are being so cold to him and him not knowing why, what he was doing wrong. You wouldn't talk to him; you won't talk to him. You've pushed him too damn far!! Do you truly hate him that much?!! You act jealous seeing Tommy & I together.... when you know good & well Mick & I am a couple.... Answer me Damnit!", I growl out and I am shocked to see the look on Nikki's face: guilt, shame and remorse.

"I-I-I know y-you won't believe me.... I-I don't hate Tommy. Far from it.... I've never hated him...never. It's just that I...", Nikki breaks down sobbing and these are heart wrenching sobs, full of pain.... Nikki pulls it together long enough to stammer out, "There are no excuses but excuses, but I treated Tommy like I have, because I thought my feelings would go away, they haven't, they won't. I hate being vulnerable, because that's always gotten me in trouble, and hurt. I love him, really love him...I just, the irony is, I haven't known how to tell him. I don't know what to say...I— ", I cut him off.

"I believe you, for some reason I believe you Sixx.... but you need to try & fix things! For some reason Tommy loves you, despite everything he's given you, his heart! He hasn't deserved any of what you've been putting him thru! Now why did you leave him after you both got plastered that night two months ago? Do you have any idea how much that killed Tommy?"

Nikki sighs heavily, "Eric.... I left, because I couldn't bear to see that I've hurt him even more than I already did and have. I don't deserve someone as sweet and beautiful as him, I couldn't face what I'd done...I just..." again I cut Nikki off.

"Being vulnerable isn't always a bad thing...but that night.... you left something else behind besides your bandana.... You got Tommy pregnant two months ago, he just found out last month.... he hasn't been doing well AT ALL!! You need to see and understand how far you've truly pushed him and that your actions have consequences!! You've always intimidated him, but then you had to make it worse! Oh, there's one other thing: Took him to the doctor' s this morning...turns out, he is carrying twins. YOUR twins Nikki, he has been too afraid to tell you! Way to go Sixx!" Nikki with his stage make-up smeared, eyes wide and jaw dropped stammers...

"I-I-I.... he's pregnant?! With my.... wait twins? My babies? Oh God, oh god what have I done?! Are they ok?! I-I have to try & fix this...even if it takes the rest of my life! Oh, god!"

"Now you are finally confronting your feelings, please quit hurting Tommy.... Now I have to go, our show starts soon, but before I do...", Here I reach into the belt of my costume and pull out an ultra-sound photo of the twins. Nikki takes it hands shaking and falls into the floor clutching it to his chest sobbing....

"I have to try & make things right...I have to...who the hell treats the person they love like this? What have I done?!" I pause a moment at the door and turn back to him...

"Now you see, I hate that it had to happen this way.... think hard about how to try & fix things. Ok?" and with that I turn on my heels and leave to go find my bandmates. I think FINALLY Nikki is on a path, that can lead him to happiness, despite how he's treated Tommy...I believe that in time, things will be better for us all, Tommy & Nikki especially. 

A/N: Finally Nikki has confronted his feelings and is at last on a path to hopefully fixing things with Tommy...He will soon enough finally talk with Tommy. Oh I can't wait to hear thoughts on this!!...Next chapter will see Nikki thinking about just how exactly he will try to fix things with Tommy and Nikki knows now that he is going to be a father!