messy love •harrypotterxoc•

• chapter fifty (4)

brier was sat on her desk staring at the peice of paper in her hand, her eyes fogged up but she looked up and batted her lashes so nothing fell out.

she tied her hair back out of her face, yet some peices fell out anyway coming to the front framing her heart shaped face, but she ignored them tucking it behind her ear. he hair tangled around each other and her ear piercings but she didn't care about the pain it cause pulling on it, she didn't feel it anyway

she went to her family owl in the office and stroked its feathers lightly before sighing and giving the owl the letter

"i've done it" she said weakly to her parents who looks sat her in disgust

"good, i hope you know this doesn't mean your not still a disgrace, because you are" her mother sneered

"imagine dating a girl when you are one yourself, your a dirty little faggot" her father said making the girl wince and walk away holding in tears until she reached her room

she ran into her bed and collapsed, grabbing a pillow and screaming into it with all she had. her voice broke and hollow as she screamed out, screamed out for pansy, for her hugs, her kisses, her hoodies, just her

wasn't she enough for her parents, sure brier was abit on the plus size side but pansy always said that she was perfect

sure she was black but so was her dad so it couldn't be that

they just can't be homophobic, they can't. she doesn't deserve that. she keeps her grades up, she defends the portman name, she stays kind and honest, she got into slytherin like her parents wanted her too. so she likes girls that doesn't change anything about her personality, and to be honest she liked boys to, she liked anyone for their personality, she was pansexual not a monster but in her parents eyes that was the same thing

she ran to her draw opening it and got out a picture of her and pansy and cried even more. her tears smudging the colour of it but she didn't care long as it didn't smudge pansy

"you girl, wow, we try to reason with you but you still disobey us and keep this dirt" her mum sneers at her in disgust "this is what you get for being a filthy homosexual" she grabbed the picture and ripped it in half and threw it out the window with a scowl on her face "you disgust me" she said walking out and slamming the door

the walked to her desk looking at her broken self and decided to clean, it helped her think, she knew dinner was in 40 minutes and that she'd have to deal with them soon enough but for now she was fine

she cleaned her desk putting all the scrap letters in the bin and put her hairbrush and makeup in a empty draw putting her parchment and ink neatly on the countertop. she made her double bed by putting her thick covers over neatly and her blankets came folded near the bottom. her many pillows filled the space as she put her bobbly throw at bottom of her bed letting it stretch across so her bed didn't look empty. the white metal head board covered in fairy lights was turned on making it light her dark room up and making it look bigger then it was. she lit her candles on her book shelves and straightened up the female rights and classic books before grabbing one and putting it on her window seat

she had one of them windows where you can sit on it like a seat as it goes out and use it as a sofa which she often does while looking at the rain fall over the london grounds of the small village

she sat on her bed and worked on some muggle school work about equality until he heard the front doors open.

confused, she looked out her door and crept to the staircase and pushed her head through one of the gaps and looked around and saw something her didn't want to see; her aunts and uncles. both of her aunts were snobby brats and there husbands were typically patriarchal males who viewed woman as objects and were also extremely opinionated on how females are lesser then. basically they were all twats