Dean pov
It's been 2 weeks since my little girls were born and not get me wrong im happy but at the same time it's put so much pressure and stress on me I mean it does for any new parents but with my back and my headaches I just can't do as much as I want to with them and it's killing me inside seeing seth roman and sami sitting down playing with them and being able to do stuff with them and that hurts it make me feel like I've failed them already and thats what rips my heart out but I keep that from them as just put on a fake smile I hate it I miss work too I just wanna be in that ring fighting doing what I love working to support my family and I can't even do that I was in bed right now with ameila who was asleep on my chest holding on to my finger she seems to have a thing of holding on to it Gabriella is more of a mummy's girl where ameila seems to have bonded with me more witch is werid to me ive had a few bad panic attacks over the last 2 weeks likely sami was here when they happen as they were really bad they didn't like slowly start and get bad like most of my other ones where sami could calm me down before they get bad no these ones just came out of know where and started bad my back is a little more painful too as ameila is always asleep on my chest it's put pressure on my back I haven't told anyone tho cause I know what they would be like but I think they might no its hurts more then what it has been cause sometime I can't hold a moan of pain in with the slightest movement sometimes
"Hey babe you ok you seemed deep in thought there for a minute" aj said pulling me out my thoughts "yeah I'm ok" I said looking down slightly a ameila and sighed "what is it" aj asked "nothing" I said ameila then bent my finger back while in her sleep "oww" I said pulling my finger away aj smiled a little "god beating daddy up already ameila" aj said "you know I still can't get use to being called a dad it really hasn't hit me yet I mean it's sunk in knowing this is real is just hasn't hit me yet you know" I said " yeah I get it it didn't hit me until the other day and I was like wow oh my god I'm a mum now I have my own little family with my amazing boyfriend who is the best dad in the world I couldn't with for someone better to be the father of my kids dean I love you and ameila and Gabriella love you too" she said ok that put a smile on my face maybe I can do this maybe I can be a good dad and give them what I never had and they main thing I never had was love and I love my girls so bloody much they are my world they are what I have to protect and love until my last breath all 3 of my girl aj,ameila and Gabriella I wonder if I should ask aj to marry what would she say
"Dean you listening to me" she asked snapping me out of my thoughts "hmmm sorry what" I asked "you sure your ok" she asked "yeah" I said then yawned "get some rest baby we will talk later" she said smiling then kissing me I closed my eyes slowly falling to sleep didn't last long tho as ameila woke up she looked at me smiling that little cheeky smile of hers I smiled back
She put her little hand on my cheek rubbing my beard it's getting abit long im gonna have to shave it down but keep a bit of stubble
I slowly sat up making her giggle
"Da" she said I looked at her wide eyed "did you just speak" I said "da" she said again "say dada" I said "da..da" she said oh my god did that really just happen I have the biggest smile on my face right now
"I love you" I said seeing if she will try copying me "I wove yo..you" she said aww that's so cute
"That's my girl" I said "dada" she said giggling roman then came in "whats she giggling about" roman asked smiling "tell uncle roman what you call me" I said roman looked at me confused "dada" she said again roman looked in complete shook
"D-did she just speak" he asked I nodded smiling "RoRo" she said aww "yeah that's your uncle " I said as she putting to roman "RoRo" she said again "oh my god that is so sweet it melts my heart" he said holding his heart "and who said I was gonna be going soft" I said laughing everyone else came in
"You guys having a party with us we here laughing and giggling" seth said "aj come here and listen to this" she came over "who am i" I said to ameila everyone but roman looked confused "dada" ameila said aj's mouth dropped open I closed her mouth "she just said her first word oh my god" aj said "what there's more" I said everyone went quiet "who's that" I pointed to roman "RoRo" she said seth then came over " see if she came say my name" he said "who's that" I asked her pointing to seth she looked at him for a moment "sethie" she said "oh my god I've just died and gone to haven" he said holding his heart
"Mama" she then said giggling
She looked over at sami who was holding Gabriella "crazy" she said witch made us laugh "yup you take after your dad" sami said laughing
aj took her to go feed them and then bathed them and changed them then put them down to bed sometimes ameila can fall asleep with her teddy if she's really tired witch she is right now but I still stayed in bed and went back to sleep as I was also still very tired it felt weird tho her not being on my chest I felt like I was missing something so I got up carefully getting one of my crutches and going over to her I picked her up along with her teddy and got back to bed slowly lieing back down on my back holding her in my arms she held on to her teddy but also grabbed my finger and I soon fell in to a nice relaxing sleep
