The next morning
Aj pov
When I woke up the next morning Dean wasn't in bed I got up and went over to ameilas crib she wasn't there I walked in to the main room and seth was there with ameila and roman "Where's dean" I asked "went out for a walk with sami" roman said "how did he sleep he looked exhausted" seth asked "not good at all he was mumbling Gabriellas name alot" I said they looked at me with worried and sad eyes "that might explain why he asked sami to go along with him" roman asked "how are you holding up" seth asked "I miss her alot and that fact that we have to bury her when she didn't even get to live her life it's hard she my little girl I shouldn't have to bury her" I said tears in my eyes "we will sort out the funeral to make it perfect for the little Angel" roman said "I can do it" I said "we got it" roman said "thanks" I said knowing I won't be able to handle it
She went and had a shower when she came back in to the main room sami and dean had just got in dean did look exhausted and his eyes were red he walked slowly towards the bedroom with his crutches I went in after him and he was changing he got down to his boxers and slowly got in to bed I went over and sat next to him he looked at me I moved my hand to his hair
And moved it out his eyes "I love you" I wispered "I love you too" he mumbled his voice cracking slightly I laid down on my side and messed about with his hair his eyes slowly started to shut as his body relaxed and he soon drifted of to sleep but not long after that he started gripping on to the covers tighter and tighter a look of pain and sadness on his face "don't....don't take her" he mumbled "I could have protected her" he mumbled turned his head away from me "dean babe wake up" I said sitting myself up facing him and slowly rubbed his chest he started to shake he was sweating I got up and went over to his side of the bed "dean baby wake up" I said putting my hand back on his chest rubbing it trying to wake him I couldn't shake him cause of his back he started breathing heavily his shaking worse I got up and went to get sami not knowing if this was a panic attack or just the dream he was having sami came in to the room and over to dean I sat down at the end of the bed "dean buddy wake up man" sami said putting his hand on dean's shoulder rubbing slightly dean didn't wake up "come on bro" sami said rubbing his chest now dean mumbled something before his eyes opened and he went to sit up sami held him down dean's breathing now fast and panicky "it's alright bro" sami said dean slowly started calming down
"You ok" sami asked dean shook his head tears coming to his eyes sami helped dean sit up and hugged him dean's slowly falling from his eyes after a little while dean had calmed down again and fallen back asleep a peaceful sleep this time I stayed with him and cuddled up to him put my head on his chest and my hand slowly rubbing his stomach witch moved slowly as he breathes
His body relaxed more as time went on he ended up sleeping all day we woke him to eat he ate a little then went back to sleep ameila had been feed changed but was starting to fuss I took her to mine and dean's room and got her teddy but she wouldn't stop fussing I didn't really want to wake dean he needed his sleep but he knew how to calm her I walked over to dean "dean babe" I said he mumbled something moving slightly then opened his eyes "Babe can you hold her" I asked He shook his head "Babe please she needs you" I said feeling tears in my eyes he sighed and put his arms out I slowly put her down on his chest he hesitated before putting his arms around her protectively she stopped fussing holding on to his finger as his eyes slowly closed again falling back asleep as ameila messed around with his finger I got in bed beside them ameila was facing me with a smile she pulled dean's hand to her mouth and kissed it "dada" she said smiling I smiled at her she closed her eyes gripping his finger tightly not wanting to let go and she feel asleep as did i
