Hiding the Billionaires son

Chapter 63: Assurance

Chapter 63:

Gulat na gulat si mommy ng pagbuksan ako ng,  nasa bisig ko si Peyton, pinaulanan agad ako nito ng tanong gabi na at bumyahe parin kami. Buti nga at hindi na gising si Peyton sa gitna ng byahe. I was so tired and divastated right now. I drive from Manila to San Lorenzo, I'm crying the whole ride I was so thankful that we reach her safely. I'm still thinking about Athrea and Ace, and thinking them is killing me. Is he enjoying her company? Did he already know were not home? Why are you worried anyway, Samantha? I thought you don't care anymore? That he can do what the fvck he want? But why are you still hoping that he'll show up looking for you and Peyton?

I want to dump my head on the wall for being shit again. What the hell is happening to you Samantha?

Kahit nagugulohan si mommy ay agad niya kaming pinapasok, agad kung inakyat sa taas si Peyton, nakasunod sa akin si mommy na gulong-gulo parin. I know she want to ask me more, but she is stoping herself knowing I am not okay. But I have to.

Dahan dahan kung inihiga sa kama si Peyton, kinumotan ko ito hanggang dibdib niya hinalikan ko ang noon nito. Siniguro kong mahimbing ang tulog nito bago hinarap si mom.

I sigh deeply. I want to rest, but I still have to explain to her. I don't know either if I can sleep, lahat ng oras ay ang lalaki ang iniisip ko mga agam agam na ayaw ko. Hindi ako pinapatahimik ng isip at puso ko.

"What happened hija? Nag ayaw ba kayo? Bakit kayo pumunta rito ng ganitong oras, Dont get me wrong okay I really do want you here but I was worried of your presence right now. I know something bad happened. You can tell me everything" she said looking worried to me.

Traidor nga siguro ang mga luha ko, nag sipatakan na naman ito. I'm so tired crying my eyes were puffy already. Pero bakit walang tigil parin ito sa pagtulo? Kasabay ng luha ko ay ang sakit ng puso ko, parang pinipiga ito, sinasaksak ng libo libong punyal. Sobrang sakit na, ganito ba ang pagmamahal? Sobrang sakit, nakakasakit kana, pagibig! They say love is painful, kakambal ng pagmamahal ang sakit, pero sana naman hindi ganito ka sakit. And they also said that everything has an end? Then when? When will I stop hurting like this? Hanggang kailan ako masasaktan sa pagmamahal sa kanya habang siya naman ay may mahal na iba. Hindi ba pwedeng masaya nalang kami?

"You dont have to tell me everything if you're not yet okay... I know you had quarel with Ace, but always remember, running away from him before hearing his explination is a stupid way of moving on." Pangaral nito. Mom why you always make sense? Hmm?

Maybe mom is right I have to hear his explination first, but I never owe him one. I don't even have a right to act like this. He don't have risponsibilities with me, it's only Peyton not me.

"Nagmahal ka lang, anak. At dahil nagmahal ka masasaktan ka, pero hindi ibig sabihin non ay talo ka sa laro ng pagibig. Siguro nga ngayon nakikita mong talo ka kasi wala kang pinanghahawakan, walang assurance. Pero...  naisip mo ba? Na sa kahit anong laro may talo at panalo, kagaya ng larong badminton, pag ikaw yung unang papalo, 'yung may hawak ng shuttlecock malaki ang tyansang manalo ka kasi may assurance, kasi nga hawak mo siya pwede mong hinaan o lakasan ang pala para hindi makabawi ang kalaban, nasa iyo yun. Iyon ang assurance mo. At kung hindi mo hawak ang shuttlecock, wala kang assurance hindi mo alam ang plano ng tadhana pag nasalo mo at napalo pabalik ang shuttlecock it means you have one point, you will have the 1% assurance that you might win. Hindi ka kagaya ng may hawak noong una palang siya may 1% na bago pa nagsimula ang laro. And looks like she defeated you in round 1, pero may ilang rounds pa para lumaban h'wag kang mangamba kung natalo ka, as long as you're alive you will always have the reason to fight and reason to win the game, the game of love. And the price is him. Fight for that guy. Kung natalo ka niya sa first round dont let her in second round."