When I'm without you (y/n x Sapnap)

Chapter 5

Nicks pov
After a while y/n rolls over to face the wall again, I get up and turn off the light, then lay back down next to y/n,"the ice rink opens tomorrow, wanna go ice skating?" She suggests.
       I think for a moment "sure," I almost make an 'it's a date!' Joke but stop myself.
       "I heard that hesitation, what are you keeping on your mind?" She leans back agents me.
I laugh nervously "it's nothing, really, It's nothing important," I put my hand on her stomach
      "ok, if you say so," she puts her hand on top of mine, giving me butterflies. She takes a deep breath "I like this feeling," she rubs my hand with her thumb.
          "what?" I get super confused.
"This might sound weird but I don't ever get this close to people so I've never felt it before, but it feels like weight being lifted off of me, and I don't feel constricted, it's just new to me, I don't know,"
    I giggle, "what your experiencing is called a Serotonin rush, it happens with Physical touch,"
There's a few moments of silence, "well it's vary relaxing," she says quietly. I put my arm under her side and roll up on my side, her following the movement. I wrap my arms up around her, she giggles, "what," I ask after.
       "nothing, just thoughts running through my head,"
She grabs her phone and checks the time, 1:43 am. "Damn," she say and turns off her phone. The room goes silent for a while, I feel her relax completely. "Y/n, you still awake?" I ask quietly, theres no response.I hold her tightly and closes my eyes, eventually I drift off to sleep.
The next morning
Y/n's POV
I awaken slowly, the feeling of someone there startles me, I start to remember last night, now knowing that Nick is with me makes me relax. I rub my eyes and take a deep breath, then look at my phone, 8:27, not to bad. I curl my knees up a little, Nick does the same seconds later, I giggle "you awake?" I ask him not being able to tell.
       "ya," his voice is low and raspy.
I open my phone, it opens to the TikTok of someone shipping me and Nick, from the stream. I giggle and quickly closes the app then open my moms contact. I quickly type out 'prolly will stop by for a bit but I'm going skating today so won't be home long,' and send it. A few minutes later I get a response 'k, just make sure your being good and I'm fine with it,'
I turn off my phone and lay it down "as much as I would love to stay here and do this we have plans and I'm super excited about it so please let me get up," I say and lean back agents Nick.
       he squeezes me "but I'm comfy, just a little longer, please," he says in response, his voice still low and raspy.
"Ok, but only because you asked so nicely," I put my arms over his and relax into him, he relaxes his grip a little then slides one hand under the hoodie I took, resting it right under my ribs, I giggle as I fill with butterflies. "Your a sly fox Nick,"
Nicks pov
I slid my hand under the hoodie she has on and rest my hand right under her ribs, my hand lays flat against her stomach "your a sly fox Nick," I smile at her words
        "hell right I am," we both giggle. We lay together for a while.
        "can we get up now?" She says after a while,
     "fine," I say dramatically and free my arms.
I stand up and she does the same, she holds my hoodie up to her nose, takes it off, and hugs it before putting it on my bed, I giggle "really," I grab it and hang it up on the opposite side of my closet.
     "what i like the smell," she giggles
     I make a joke "oh so you like the way I smell," I smile at her, we make eye contact.
       "mhm," she says and hugs me.
I wasn't expecting her to respond but her response makes my face go hot, I wrap my arms around her shoulders and rub her back with a giggle. We stop hugging and she goes to my desk to put her stuff back on.
        I grab a shirt and hoodie from my closet and back jeans from my drawer, "I'm gonna go get ready then I will take you home so you can do the same," I say as I turn and walk out the door.
I go into the bathroom and get changed, brush my teeth, fix my hair, and a few other small things along the way. I walk out and go back to my room, y/n is sitting at my computer typing something. "Wcha doin?" I walk up behind her quietly and put my hands on her shoulder, making her jump.
"Oh my god, you asshole!" She says and types out 'Nicks an asshole he just scared the shit out of meeeeee!' And sends it to Clay on discord.
       "Seriously what are you doing," I massage her shoulders
        "I don't really know, I'm talking to Clay on discord because why not," she responds
A response pops up on screen 'lol topical Nick for ya!' Is his response, she starts typing and I admire how fast she can type. I look at the screen after she hits enter 'ima add you on discord one sec,' reads out, she gets out her phone and opens discord to the add friend page, then types in his discord and sends the friend request.
She types out with one hand 'sent!' And a response of 'got it,' shows up. "Ok let's go," I shut down my pc quickly and she gets up off the chair.
       "Yep let's go," she says and walks out of my room, I grab my phone and follow behind her to the living room. We put on our shoes and get into the car.
Y/n's POV
The car ride is quite, soon we arrive at my house, I start to get nervous because I know my dad or mom and possibly my siblings will see me with Nick. I see my moms car in the driveway but not my dads, I don't get my hopes up because it could be in the garage. Nick parks the car and we get out to go inside
We go inside and go to my room, still just as clean as it was the other day, "I'm just gonna chill on your bed till you finish getting ready," Nick walks over to my bed and sits down, doing something on his phone.
        "Ok," I respond and walk to my closet, I grab a cropped sweater and leggings, it always keeps me worm when I go to the rink, I go there pretty often and even have my own skates that I use when I go.
I go into my bathroom and shut the door. After I finish changing I brush my teeth and wash my face, put on deodorant, I put my hair in a braid crown and use Bobby pins to pin them to the sides of my head. I fix the sleeves of my sweater before walking out of the bathroom to get socks.
Nick look up from his phone and his face goes a little red, he giggles "smerf" he says and rolls his eyes.
       "nimrod!" I respond aggressively, then turn to my closet to grab a pare of socks. Suddenly I feel arms around my hips and get lifted off the ground, I curl my legs up closer to my chest,"hey put me down!" I try to push his arms away but I'm not strong enough.
He laughs "I'm not a nimrod!" He says as he starts to walk backwards
       "where are we going," I giggle as I say it, he sits down on my bed, I sit on top of him. "I'm.not.a nimrod," he says slowly still holding me around my hips.
        "yes, your always going to be a nimrod," I say jokingly and laugh
        he sighs "and sadly you won't always be a smerf," I feel his head agent's you back for a few seconds.
    His grip around me goes lose giving me the chance to stand up again, I stand up and walk back over to grab my socks then back over to my bed to put them on. I walk back over to my closet and shuffle through my shoes on the floor till I find my skates, I grab them and hold them up, "let's go,"
        he looks at me "you have skates?" We make eye contact.
     "Yep, skating has been a hobby of mine for a few years, other than playing music this is one of my get always from the outside world, it just makes me feel human," I walk over to my desk and sit in my computer chair, then grab my acoustic guitar.
     I start to play something random, I end up just playing the cords to Line Without a Hook, I giggle remembering the other day when it started playing at a weird time. "What?" Nick asks dramatically.
        "I was just trying to play something random and it ended in Line Without a Hook," I lean back and laugh a little.
      "Aww it's our song," he says in aww
       "What do you mean 'our song'?" I look at him funny
       He takes a deep breath "it's the song that brought us together y/n, it's pretty cool to have a song that can remind you of your friends, especially sense, when it happened to was pretty funny actually," he laughs through his words.
     "I guess so," I say then look back down and continue playing the song, thinking of the lyrics in my head I remember the feeling of Nicks hand on my knee that day, I smile at the thought of it. Ending the song with a few fancy grace notes I look up at Nick who's staring intently with sparkling eyes, a bright smile on his face.
     "I could never get enough of that, your an amazing player, I can't even tell you how amazing you are, it's off the charts," he shakes his head a little.
       His words fill me with butterflies "thanks," I say then turn my chair to put my guitar back on the stand.
        I stand up and grab my skates, "ok now let's actually go, we have been like stalling or something," I walk over and stand by him slightly away from my bed. We go back to the car and I play music in the car. A few songs pass and Line Without a Hook starts to play, "oh what are the chances!" I exclaims and laugh, "holy shit, how is that possible!" He responds with a giggle.
     We calm down and listen to the song for about a minute, I'm not paying any attention till I feel Nicks hand on my thigh, I fill with butterflies and my face gets hot as I look at his hand rested on my leg, I smile. "I-is this ok?" He asks nervously.
      "yep, it's just fine," I look at him with a huge smile on my face.
Nicks pov
      She looks at me with a smile, blushing slightly, I look back to the road. The song finish's and switch's to a song I don't recognize, I listen for a while for the lyrics, y/n giggles then mumbles something. "What?" I ask, my voice softer than expected.
       she looks at me "oh nothing, just talking to myself," she says quickly with a smile
       I rub her thigh my thumb, "just know you can tell me anything, I'm here if you need me,"
     She giggles "I know," she responds and leans her head against my arm then picks it back up. We get to the rink and pull into the parking lot, I park the car in the almost empty lot and we walk inside. A lady at the front desk greets us "oh hello y/n, oh you brought a friend," the lady says with a smile.
      "Yes I did, this is Nick, and he will be needing to borrow a pare of skates," I smile and wave at the lady "what size?" She looks at me with a smile, "umm, 11 and 1/2," I say hesitantly and she walks back to grab me some skates. (A/n I actually looked it up so don't come for me on guessing bc I didn't!)
      The lady brings me the skates and me and y/n go over to put our skates on, it's a little tedious but I figure it out in the end. "Have you ever Ice skated before," y/n look at me as she finishes tiring her laces. "I have but I'm not really good at it," I say honestly, she smiles "well this is going to be fun," she says and stands upright on her skates, I do the same and have to find my balance a little.
    We walk to the door of the arena, there's a man smoothing the ice still. After a few minutes he leaves and a buzzer goes off, "finally, took long enough,"
y/n says and steps onto the ice. She skates far out and does a fancy spin before coming back over to me, she puts her hands out "come on," she giggles
     I grab her hands and carefully step onto the ice, she slowly moves backwards then let's go of my hands, leaving me about 10 feet from the door. She goes in circles around me "you just going to stand there?" She giggles.
     "No, I wasn't planning on staying here till you started going in circles," I say dramatically. She giggles as she goes in front of me then as she goes around she grabs my hand and starts to pull me with her, "hey hey, to fast chill," she starts to speed up a little
      "you have to move your feet, I'm literally pulling you," she giggles and looks back at me.
      I start to move my feet off the ice and I speed up a little and get next to her, "there, see it's not that hard," she says sarcastically and lets go of my hand, speeding up and does a few spins. I turn and go in her direction, "can we just skate in circles for a bit so I can get the hang of this?"
     "Ok," she says dramatically and does a sharp turn to face the same direction as me, we line up and skate in circles for a while, eventually I learn how to go fast and slow, and can do a half turn. I skate over to the wall and stop for a moment, my face is cold from the air around me. "How about you show off your skills? I will chill here for a bit," I say as she passes me.
     She nods and speeds up before starting a sequence of spins and a few jumps, it's really cool that in just a few years she's leaned so much. After about a minute she gets to the other side of the rink and turns, speeding towards me, she gets closer to me and does a hockey stop, I hear the spreading of ice as cold snow hits me.
     I run my fingers through my hair "hey, what was that for?!" I exclaim with a giggle. "You told me to show you what I can do so I did, just felt like it I guess," she giggles and slides back agents the wall. She pulls her phone out and opens YouTube, looking for something.
     She pulls up a video and shows it to me, it a video of a simple partner trick, the girl try's to skate away but the guy grabs her wrist and spins her, pushes her behind his back, grabbing her other hand, spins her and finally she falls back into a dip. "Think we could pull that off?" She asks and takes the phone back, rewinding it to look again.
     "All you have to do really is use your straight, I think we could try," she says after re watching the video a few times. "Sure let's try it," I respond, she puts her phone back, I grab her wrist and pull her away from the wall, making her giggle.
     We try what she showed me over and over again, with lots of mess ups and a few falls we finally get it down. "Y/n we should make a video of it and post it, the media will go crazy," I joke
      "sure, it's a good idea," she pulls out her phone and sets it up against the side of the rink.
     "Ok you stand there and when it starts I will be off screen then go in front of you," she suggests. I go to the spot she showed me and nod, she presses the record button off screen.
Srry for the long chapter wc:2891