Blame It On Pride

C h a p t e r T h i r t y - T h r e e

Y/n's POV:

I know that I should've kept it to myself, Rafe would murder me if he'd find out that I told them about our 'one-time-thing'...

Nevertheless, I do feel penitent about telling them, we've hated him from when we all were five, when he threw rocks at our damn snowman with Topper, and I am not saying that I like him in any way now, no... I don't.

However them knowing that we slept together, it can't lead to something pleasant...

I run into the station, pacing towards the room that I was in right before leaving, I peek through the window and notice Lilah with officer Shoupe in there, opening the door and closing it behind me, I walk in, Lilah stands up, glaring at me with widened eyes as she inspects me, 

'Y/n, what are you doing here?' Shoupe asks, 

'With all due respect Ms. Garcia, however you cannot call people to ask them one question and then just hang up without explaining, what is happening? Why did Rafe have the file that looked identical to the ones we shared for missions?' I blurt out, a bit mortified by the vast approach, however I do require answers...

'Y/n...your mission is over-'

'And his not? We worked together and if it has anything to do with it, I have all the rights to know.' I command, stepping in front of them across the table, Lilah sighs as she nods at Shoupe to retrieve a file from the pile, 

'Y/n...There's another mission, but, it's not accounted as something we are responsible for, it's more for the sake of safety that Rafe voluntarily decided to go to...'

'Then why am I still here, I'll go as well-'

'No, Mr. Cameron strictly stated that he will do it only if we make sure that you stay out of it...'

'And you just let him go?' I ask, I feel tear threatening to escape however I force it to not, not believing the word they're saying...

'It was his idea-'

'Right...' I sarcastically scoff, 

'Y/n...'

'Where is he right now?' I ask as Lilah shrugs and shakes her head, 

'I cannot tell you-Y/n understand, I didn't want him to go, however he insisted for the safety-'

'Who's safety?'

Lilah looks at Shoupe, gauging his response as I await for the answer, 

'He insisted-'

'For it to remain confidential, didn't he?' I ask as Lilah nods,

Fine, don't tell me, I'll find out myself...

'Y/n-'

'No, it's fine.' I respond, walking out of the room and pacing towards the threshold, my knees feel weakened, as I trod quicker after hearing them recite my name, 

I need to get that file, I am not entirely sure on how will I get it, how will I get to the destination nor how to even get in the station controversially, but, I'll figure it out...

Exiting the station, my eyes widen once I see all of them...

Kiara, Pope and John. B leaning against the car, Sarah at the front and JJ right besides the door of the station, they all look up after seeing me walk out, 

I can't talk with them right now, I am not furious-nor am I mad, but, everything has been bottled up for a while now and I may let it out on them by an accident and they still are my friends and I would love the resolve the problem, however not now...

I turn around and begin to pace the other way as I feel someone grasp my wrist, 

'JJ, not now-'

'I'm sorry...' Kiara mutters, walking towards me as JJ lets go of my arm, 

'We want to help you...' JJ states as I glimpse at them, perplexed, 

'Yes, I was being unfair towards you, JJ told me what you went through whilst being there and...we honestly can't blame, but to be pleased that you're back, however, there is something bothering you, maybe you are not telling us because you don't know yourself, but, maybe we can help you to discover what it is-even if it means...doing something that involves that douche...' Kiara says, looking at me as everyone walks closer, I smile and glare at JJ who's-blushing? 

Am I hallucinating? Are these rogue cheeks that I can see?

I chuckle as they all walk towards me, embracing me, internally, I completely materialise that they are disapproving of what happened, however, they still desire to help...

'We need to break in-the police station.' I state as JJ and John B. glance at each other, knowingly, oh Lord...

'Leave it up to us.' JJ chuckles jokingly as he high-fives with John B.

'Oh please, every time you work together, you end up doing something completely else, we can't trust you with this one,' Sarah states as we all chuckle,

'Now that's not true.' JJ protests, 

'Really? Then what happened when we were all tasked to do something, you had to take one item, keys, and you arrived with a police car because you were tired of walking?' I ask, 

'I still had the keys.' He insinuates, smiling, 

'You had the wrong ones JJ.' I respond...