Blame It On Pride

C h a p t e r S i x t y - T h r e e

Y/n's POV:

I stare at the lipstick, my fingers trembling,

He wouldn't do that, he wouldn't,

He's been seen with so many women, are you sure that you're not just his new toy? My subconscious sneaks at me, no,

'Promise me that, you'll never stop loving me.' I remember his words, his own words, that left his lips, before I agreed and we kissed,

I brush my fingers over my lips,

His lips...

I need to get away, I need talk with Jenna first, I refuse to believe this, I absolutely refuse, either I am too gullible and naive, either I've got a gut-feeling that...maybe Rafe just bought a new lipstick for...me?

Maybe he didn't know that Jenna had an...identical one.

Rafe is currently in the bathroom, I won't be able to fall asleep if I don't know the truth, it's stupid of me to do that, but I need to know,

However this is my only chance, my sole opportunity to get to Jenna quicker than Rafe if he finds out about the lipstick, since tomorrow, we have plans already and at night...without me, he has nightmares, and he always notices when I'm away, I have to do it now,

I'll leave a note...

Like that's going to help, genius... My subconscious laughs, oh fuck you...

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I quickly scribble a lanky note, saying,

'My mum texted me, they left for a vacation and she left the stove on, I had to go and check, love you, brb!'

I then run downstairs, I see Wheezie, going upstairs as well, she notices my heavy breathing and my widened eyes,

'Are you okay-did Rafe do something shitty?' She asks,

'No-no, not at all, but I just have to do something, once Rafe steps out of the bathroom, could you please hold him in for longer? I need some time, please?' I ask as she nods quickly,

'Yeah Of course, I'll try.' She reassures as I smile,

'Thank you so much, I owe you one.' I respond, running towards the door and going outside,

Firstly, I need to get somewhere where...where I have an opportunity to catch my breath and have more time...

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'Y/n? Oh Gosh, Y/n!' Kiara exclaims, running towards me with open arms, as everyone follows her, reciting my name in ecstasy,

They all embrace me, squeezing me,

'We missed you, we were even planning to plunder you ourselves, that control-freak took all of you!' JJ recites, hugging me even tighter,

'I'm sorry, so, so sorry, but I did negotiate that, we can contact, and hang out, but before that, I'm here because I...whilst placing Rafe's bag on the counter, I noticed a lipstick, that is not mine, it looks ghastly similar to the one his ex has...' I mumble, everyone looks at me, eyes widened, lips scorched,

'That bastard-'

'But-but I am not certain that it's hers, I need to find that out myself, Rafe has already spammed my phone, he noticed that I am not there, and I don't have much time, so I have to do it fast, please, guard the door.' I plead as John B nods and steps towards his front door, looking out of the window,

'But Y/n, are you alright-I mean with erm...him?' JJ asks whilst I shuffle through my bag, I glance at him and smile,

'I...I am happy with him, but I missed you, I need you lot, I really do, and thank you, for helping me...' I respond, smiling, they nod and smile in return,

My phone is already ailing from the amount of calls and texts I'm receiving from Rafe,

I quickly match the lipstick with one of Jenna's posts as I then message her,

'Hey, I found this recently, could it be yours by any chance?'

I then sit there, leg bouncing frantically, I am not ready for a reply, I am not ready, I can't lose him, I cannot, I grew so attached and drawn to him that...that I simply cannot lose him...

Sarah places her hand over my knee, calming me,

'Listen, I'll admit, I was doubtful about yours and Rafe's relationship, since, well, it's Rafe, but once I saw you two, he's never been this happy before, he never inflicted such scrupulous care upon anyone, he seems genuinely-utterly smitten by you, he always needs you by his side, it's...new.' She says, reassuring me, I smile and nod,

'I'm sorry for, just disappearing.' I mutter, knotting with the ring around my neck, Sarah notices and smiles,

'It's alright, we missed you, we weren't mad at you, we never would-and oh Lord, Rafe is horrible at typing yarn, from the childhood as well.' She chuckles, looking at the necklace, I laugh faintly,

The phone keeps ringing, no one picks up, we all know who that is, we decided to not pick up, right until literally everyone received messages from Rafe, threatening to tell him where I am,

'How did he...?' Pope mumbles, the messages get more and more threatening,

JJ picks up the phone and puts it on speaker,

'No-'

He indicates for me to be quiet as I slap my hand over my mouth,

'Where the fuck is she? If you don't tell me, I'll find her myself, so you better tell me-'

'Who are you talking about-it's middle of the night-'

'Don't play pretend with me Maybank, I am dead-serious, If you do anything to her, I'll break every Goddamn bone in your body, got it?' Rafe threatens as I hear him heavily breathing, as if he was running?

'Listen, she's not here, you captivated her, didn't you, how did you let this happen then?' JJ asks as I shake my head,

'Is there a reason on why you decided to tell me what I did and didn't do-or do you have a death-wish huh? Give her to me, I won't repeat myself.'

I get a notification, my heart rate increases as Sarah notices it and nods in reassurance, all I have to do is...turn on my phone,

Just one click, and that's exactly what I do...

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