Chapter 26
after this long weekend i decided to
to call him and text him...many several times
how many?
well like the numbers of a sand on beach
nope just kidding but seriously,
why he even answering my phone,
he always hang up
no text and call from him, he probably erase my number in his phone ouch!
I'm just here lying on my bed thinking...
did i do something wrong that he didn't like?
does he don't love me anymore
which brings tears to my eyes
I always cry day and night...
and i'm seriously tired crying
so turn my facebook and look at his profile
maybe i might get some clue why his being an asshole to me, this past weeks
and tada!
Nothing
there' nothing to look for the last thing posted here on his profile
was the picture taken when we were having a picnic
I miss this place, that place...that time when we were happy together
the time when we were holding hands
and that most romantic kiss ever under that big tree
and the sound of nature, they seems like approving our love story
I don't know now, cause everything had change....
I touch his face in my laptop
"i miss you so much Dave...do you understand...do you still loved me....talk to me...can you hear me?" i sound crazy when i talk, talk like this
"that's it Joni if you want answers...then go" my thoughts told me
"there's no winning in when you're not trying" sometimes i hate my thoughts
they seems to give a very challenging and very good advice sometimes
and there's even a qoute i've read before saying like
"sometimes i talk to myself, because i need expert advice"
well that applies on me very much
so i fixed my hair and went to Dave's House
I knocked the door and soon enough, i saw Dave opening the door
he seems all alone in their house
he looks a little bit skinny, is he on a diet or something
"can we talk" i told him
"sure come in" Dave make the way bigger for me and close his door
"so what do you wanna talk about" he didn't even say my name
I'm just holding all my emotions from in the inside
"do you still love me Dave?" i told him crossing my arms,
to grab some force to stop me from crying
he just look on the ground
"tell me Dave please..i'm who's been hurting in here" and i pointed my hear
"sorry....but no" that breaks my heart so bad
so bad that it came out from Dave's mouth...
seems not to care to me at all…all the time his with this other girls
"you say that to me when you look me in the eyes Dave"
i wasn't still convince that he didn't love me anymore
I just wanted him to grab my face and kiss me..
and all this thing will be forgiven
he look at me in my eyes
"Joni...I didn't" please don't say it "love you anymore and i'm sorry"
it hurts so bad that all my emotions came out
his face was still a poker face...
he really didn't love me anymore
I'm so hurt that i just
I just slap his face so hard "you're not sorry"
and i walk out the door and ride my car and went home crying
"you're an idiot Dave" i shouted inside my rooms so hard…
that i almost run out of voice for the next days...
why Dave...
if Adam was here wasn't gonna protect me
like you’re supposed to do..
.Dave...
I know you're still hiding something from me.... T_T
