"They did everything they could... I'm so sorry Reese, Tom didn't make it." I jolted my body into an upright position which I immediately regretted when I felt a shooting pain travel down my spine. Man, I got to stop falling asleep on the sofa.
I never used to have nightmares, I never even used to wake up during the night - now it's at least once, if not twice.
My phone lit up from the coffee table which I was thankful for since I couldn't see shit. I looked over and noticed it was two-thirty in the morning,
naturally, I also peered at the notification.___________________________________
iMessage
Billiehi I know ur probs sleeping i jus wanted to let u know that im sorry for showing up today
it's fine
i miss u
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*BILLIES POV*
I couldn't sleep. Not that being awake all night isn't normal for me, but i really could not fucking sleep. I mean, sure I could blame it on the let-lag but it wasn't that at all.
It was Reese. She's all I could think about; well, her and how badly I fucked up. I mean, who the fuck does that?
I told her I loved her, and then I left. I knew what she was going through - I knew that losing Tom was and would be the hardest thing she'd ever have to go through and I didn't care. Do I love her? She knew what I was up to, she knew all about Q and she still begged for my attention because she needed me that much.
Maybe I don't love her... no, I do. I love her so much it kills me. I can try to convince myself that I don't give a shit about her all I want, I can attempt to pretend that it doesn't rip me to shreds, but it does and I know it does.
She's never going to believe me. She's never going to hear me when I say I'm sorry. I can't blame her really, I ruined her trust. I had her whole fucking heart in my hands and threw it away like it meant nothing.
I'm such a fucking idiot.
Fuck it. I'm texting her. She'll be asleep, I know she will. She's never awake through the night. It doesn't matter though, she can read it in the morning. Shit. My thumb pressed send before I intended it to. I don't even know what I said. Fuck.
To my surprise I got a response almost immediately why is she awake? The fuck? Her response was a shitty 'i'm fine' I wanted to badly to self-pity, but I'd ignored her for weeks. Even her shitty response was too kind.
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A million miles [Billie Eilish]
RomanceReese and Billie got to know each other through an accidental face time call, it didn't take long for them to fall for each other. There was one problem standing in the way though, and that was the 5,160 miles between them. Once Billie and Reese met...