natasha romanoff x reader one shots

hate is a strong word.

you sat on the edge of wandas bed, in tears as she tried to console you.
'y/n come on you don't mean that...'
'I do! I mean it!'
'hate is a very strong word love'
your breath hitched and you sighed, shaking your head as wanda pulled you into her embrace.

*flashback*
You were at a party. Not Tony's surprisingly, just a friend of a friend. Everyone was a little bit too drunk and you soon realised that you hadn't seen nat -your girlfriend- in a few hours. You stumbled your the staircase and began to search the rooms until you came to a closet which was making too much noise for some coats...
You carefully opened the doors trying not to embarrass the people inside but flung them back in horror when your eye caught glimpse of the red hair you knew too well.
'Natasha?'
'Y/n no,' she zipped her dress up quickly and chased you down the hallway, concern racing through her voice, 'y/n baby it's not what you think i promise...' her voice cracked and tears welled her gorgeous emerald eyes.
'What else would it be nat? No, tell me. What the fuck would else it be?' You yelled at her, both of you crying through your words.

'I didn't mean to. I'm drunk and it meant nothing I swear- y/n please please i love you! I love you I love you I love you-'
'TASH STOP!? PLEASE. if you loved me that much a cocktail or two wouldnt make you go kiss another girl.' You turned to walk off.
'y/n- don't go- we, we can fix this. we can? we-'
'Not tonight.' You cut her off. 'Not tonight.'
She gasped for air and there was a deadly silence as you slammed the car door.

*flashback ends*

There was a knock at the door followed by a familiar voice on the other side, 'Wanda hey, i was just wondering if you've seen y/n? I fucked up and -I'll catch you up later, or she will, or we both wi- that doesn't matter right now actually so uhm. Have you seen her?'
Wanda looked down at you not knowing how to respond...'
'no wanda. don't. i cant see her yet' you pleaded.
Wanda sighed and tensed before replying
'She's in here Nat.'
'Oh well um- y/n, i really want to talk. I'll be in our room when you're ready.'
Her footsteps faded down the hall and wanda mouthed a sympathetic 'sorry' before motioning you to the door.
'Seriously wands I cant. I love her but I cant.'
'Yes. Y/n you can. It's been a week, you need to speak to her, and besides. It's you and nat. You're gonna be just fine.'
You sighed and wiped the tears from your eyes before heading up to your shared room...

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You sat at the chair beside the island. Nat was leaning on the counter opposite. There was total silence.

'I've thought a lot about the last time we talked. And I was pissed. But now I get it, you were right to walk away.'
You laughed weakly.
'I don't even know what happened to me and I know there are no excuses but I want you to know that I never meant to hurt you. I would never hurt you.'
'Well you did.' You whispered under your breath.
'I know but I was drunk, i wasn't th-'
'AGAIN?!! Stop telling me you were drunk. Like it's making me feel any better. Nat you know how I've been treated in the past and you went off and did this anyway. You hurt me. I never thought you would, but you did. You did and it feels like the world it literally falling apart...'
You stood from the island and turned to walk away. Again.
You felt a warm hand grab your wrist hesitantly,
'Let me go' you demanded.
Her grip loosened but didn't let go.
'It's okay y/n we can talk about this, right?'
'No!' You argued, tears streaming down your face as you yelled at the woman in-front of you, 'no it's not okay!' Your fists hit against her chest 'It's not okay! It's not-'
The punches slowed and you began sobbing without control.  Natasha watched you break into a million pieces right before her and it broke her too. She pulled you into her arms and wrapped them around you tightly knowing that-mad or not- it was the only thing that could help you at this point.
'I know. No more excuses. I'm so so sorry darling. I swear on my life that I will never do anything like this again.' Her breathing was shaky and her voice broke often' I'm here, you're gonna be okay'

She held you and your breathing calmed, becoming more and more regular the more you relaxed into her. You both pulled away and the woman wiped the hair from your face and tucked it behind your ears, stroking your jaw with her thumb. 'Nat, I'm still mad, you really upset me and that will take time.' She looked down and played with her fingers, 'But I know your sorry and I don't want to loose you. I cant loose you.' You grabbed her hands and drew circles over her knuckles.

'So, Can we be together again?' she asked quietly,
'Oh my love, we were never apart. We never will be.' You wrapped your arms around her neck and she held your waist as you settled your head into the crook of her neck, taking in her scent. You'd missed her.
'I love you so much y/n' she whispered into your hair.
'I love you more tasha' you sighed sweetly.
'Mmm not possible'
You both chuckled and held eachother, safe in each others arms.

______________________________ A/N: uh this was kinda all over the place but the idea sounded cute in my head??😃
Anyways I needed to update bc this was getting mean ALSO I'm so sorry that literally everything in this story is bloody angst central ( I'm just so quirky like that😍😍😍)

Anyways hope You're all okay, if you're not my dms are always open. I love you, you're worth it <3