Part Time 2

Pierced

Taeyeon's POV

I was too late, everything changed after this sight I saw from my car as I parked my car behind the taxi, few meters away from Yuri's Ranger. I was a bastard, what have I done? What did I do to make him do this to me, why is he so unfair to me all the time? Am I worthless? Why do everyone just toys around me like I'm just a piece of a trash that everyone could just crumple on

There's nothing much I could do but to blame and hit myself with my weakened hands. Hit the steering wheel hardly as I could just to let out my inner anger to everyone. I shouted as loud as I could, never caring at how other people may think about me outside. Looking at my shaking hands, they were red and pale as continuous water drips coming out from my eyes began to consume portion of my arm.

All these days with you, I wonder if you feel the way as I do. I don't know if you're just like him, you'll reason out to me that you're young? Age doesn't exempt you from being an asshole towards a girl that you could just throw it out away as if she had never been special to you. Even though you're a piece of an asshole to me, I never resisted myself from falling for you more.

Once I got back to velvet's dorm again, all they could see was my messed up face. Swollen eyes, pale aura, anything you could imagine at someone who's been deeply hurt. I once opened his letter again after wendy led me towards their couch, finishing what this fucker left me.

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Taeyeon,

Probably you're reading this letter with tears in your eyes and I know you would, I'm sorry, I'm very very sorry for this. I know you're very angry at me right now and all those promises I made to you instantly faded away with just a blink. I was an asshole until now, I've been an asshole to everyone of you and whatever negative things you could think, I'm that and I admit it.

Leaving a precious woman like you would be definitely the worse thing that a man in this world could ever do, you're special, you're kind and you're extraordinary. I'm not joking and I'm not trying to say this just to cool you down, I'm saying this because that's what I see about you.

I left everyone of you because that's the only way I could think of you two being together again once everything cools down. Seeing you two again would definitely harden your progress from moving on from me and this is what I decided to do. I did hurt you so you had no reason to fall for me again, I'm not the right person for you and let's keep the way that I'm just your part-timer friend. We kissed, acted like couples, said I love you's and stuff, that's nothing. It's nothing, we're just like high school couples, no label, no commitment.

As much as you hated me now, I just want you to take care of yourself. Yes, you would say that why would I care about you if this is the way I wanted. I don't know, but it's better if you would. Your friends are willing to be with you, you're their team leader and not just that, you're part of their family. Don't hurt yourself too much because of this, your world doesn't revolve around me and someone's going to be with you who's not gonna hurt you like the way I did.

This is all I wanted to say to you Taeyeon, it was a nice thing that I met a friend like you. You're wonderful as always and better be the old Taengo I knew from day 1. Strong and fighting woman!

Y/N

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Reading this felt as if a bucket of sea urchins was poured over me. I shouldn't have read this letter, I have just killed myself even more after this, It was painful to know that all of those things we just did mean nothing to him, but now, all I could just do was to stare over this sheet of paper. I felt numb, nothing more.

But I kept a promise for myself, I would never ever trust someone again easily. If ever I fucking see your face again in this country, I'll show you how it feels to be destroyed deeply slowly, piece by piece you're going to feel how I feel right now.

So don't ever dare come back