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AMARIA POV

"I'm who he's used to, Amaria. You can't keep him from me."

"You're not his father, Demetrius."

"So what? That doesn't mean I care about him any less. You can't take people that love him out of his life, Mari. That's not fair to him."

I sit in the chair thinking about his words. I wish that I didn't even come here.

Megan the Stallion contacted my manager and I about doing a dance collaboration with her. I love Megan and her music so of course I said yes. She said that it would be for an after party but the performances would be recorded for future use.

When my security and I got here, the place was mostly empty. An hour in and it's packed. I'm already dressed. Now it's just time for hair and makeup. I had not realized what team would be here, therefore I didn't know what dancers would be here.

I wish that I would've asked but I got too excited about dancing with Megan and her team.

Idiot. I'm an idiot.

I was introduced to the Suns dance team. They all congratulated me on my baby and I thanked them. I learned their names one by one. Including Demetrius's fiancé, Cassie.

She only seemed to know who I was through the internet and magazines which means that he never told her about me.

I mean, I'm grateful for that. He's respecting my wishes for privacy. But it still feels like a smack in the face that publicly, I'm the other woman. This must've been so easy for him.

Knowing that I'm not one to care or indulge in gossip. It was probably simple for him to go on dates and walk around with her freely. The only social media platform that I'm active on is Instagram.

It will always be that way. People like to show their significant others off or be open with things. They like to share everything in their life for others to see. I don't care to do that.

Things could never work with me and someone like that. I think that I'll stick to myself.

Cassie ended up introducing me to her fiancé which furthered my assumption that she didn't know. I acted like I didn't know the man at all. He returned the sentiment, saying that he's seen some of the music videos that I've participated in and choreographed.

Of course he has. I made sure that he did. I was so excited about all of them that we watched them together.

When Cassie had to go change with her team, he discreetly pulled me to the side to talk. Knowing that I wouldn't make a scene with all of these people.

"What about what's fair to me?" I ask him and his brows furrow.

"This isn't about you. This is about Kai. Don't be selfish because of your emotions. You can't hinder him because of how you feel. That is selfish and you can't be that way with him."

A styling team member comes into the room with the outfit that I'm supposed to wear. I ignore Demetrius's words and he stares at me. "I'll be over to see him when I can."

I want to cry. I want to kick and scream. But I can't do that. I have to be strong, I have a performance to kill.

And I do. Me and Megan take center and transition in and out with the Suns dancers to a mashup performance of Thot ShitxCryBabyxBody. The partygoers hype us up. Megan and I smile at each other as we dance.