September 07, 2019
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One week, one week since I haven't heard anything from him. I was left being the last chat in our conversation and I can't help but overthink. Yes, I know I excused myself but I didn't think that things would go like this. I thought he would still check up on me even though he knows that I am having my rest.
A simple, "How are you?" would do but nothing came. I can't help but overthink. What did I do? Nothing. I'm just... tired of everything.
Seeing him online— seeing the green dot beside his profile makes me sadder. He's online but can't even send a single dot to me. The only thing that I can do to keep updated about him was to check his timeline and watch his Facebook stories.
I can't do the first move. Paano kung nakaka-istorbo lang pala ako sa kaniya? Paano kung napipilitan na lang siya kausapin ako? Paano kung hindi niya talaga ako mahal?
Sinong talo? Malamang, ako.
Kasi mahal ko siya.
Totoo ko siyang mahal at naging totoo ako sa lahat nang sinasabi ko sa kaniya.
Paano kung hindi pala ganoon ang nararamdaman niya sa akin? Ayaw niya na sa akin? At ang pahinga na sinabi ko ay ang nakita niyang paraan para tigilan na ako.
Mas lalo lamang niyang dinagdagan ang iniisip ko. Imbis na gumaan, lalong bumigat ang pakiramdam ko.
Miss ko na siya pero 'di ko alam kung ganoon din ba siya sa akin.
Hayst, buhay.
Sana naging kamote na lang ako.
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