Unheard Voice and Unexpressed Feelings [2018-2020]

Don't bear ill feelings towards people

That moment when I treat them nicely and with respect but they treat me badly and like to belittle me. Think they can treat me like trash for not knowing lots of things and mock me and make fun of me for doing something the wrong way! They shout at me and laugh at me before they correct and teach me. Making me feel like shit! However, I still treat them well and let them do what they want to do cos it makes them happy seeing me questioning my worth. I only want their happiness.

But when the time comes I door slam them, I need them to comprehend the act of doing it. Everything has endings whether we like it or not. I never compare myself to others (but they make me do it but it's for me to focus on the weaknesses) cos we all have different experiences and aspirations. We all have different weaknesses and strengths. We all have different expertise. We all have different obstacles. We all have different problems and solutions in solving them. However, we all have these characteristics which make good to each other (but it's difficult to do cos people are quick to judge), they are understanding and acceptance. Through judging, we separate while through understanding we grow. Understand why someone is like that and accept them for what they are, help them improve and to better themselves. I don't expect everyone to understand and accept though. I think there's not a need for too much mockery and sneering
at them doesn't help at all.

When one has great patience and bears no ill feelings towards the people who underestimate their ability to learn things, their friendship or whatever relationship is much more important than keeping grudges. Hoping it will be saved with better communication.

Yuchae Moon
March 12, 2018