what if it doesn't end well - sunghoon.

• thirty two

two weeks later.

[messages]

sunghoon :
morning !

yn :
hey ! morning!

sunghoon :
did you sleep well? ʘ‿ʘ

yn :
yeah, wby ?

sunghoon :
yeah, me too.

yn :
great :D

* sunghoon liked a message from yn*

after 5mins.

yn :
so, uhm, i guess, see you
at school -!?

sunghoon :
see you <3

yn :
<33

*sunghoon liked a message from yn*

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sunghoon and i relationship, through text message was very much awkward, and boring.

we were out of words each time.
we always start our conversations with " morning "everyday; but when we see each other, it's actually the opposite.

at the school.

"hey!!.." i greeted sunghoon. "hello babe" he grinned. "babe? doing nicknames again huh?" i laughed. "you're my babe, it's not a nickname" he chuckled. "okay then, babe" i jokingly said.

"eat this" he gave me a banana. "i hate my mind" jake laughed, face palming himself. "i hate your mind too" remy laughed. i rolled my eyes, "it doesn't look so good now" i said. "y'all this is just a banana, not a brinjal" sunghoon laughed. "but still, i hate y'all's mind" remy chuckled, eating her apple.

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everyday, after school, sunghoon and i would go out and eat ice creams. he would always get butterscotch, and i'd get chocolate flavoured. we know we like to be around each other, but why are we so awkward together ?

when we hangout, we would talk about small things. like— 'it's raining. i love rain. i love chocolates' to be honest, that isn't so interesting. sometimes, he would call me, 'babe, sweetie' and other cute nicknames, i'd get butterflies in my stomach each time he called me 'babe' or 'sweetie'. but it isn't so special now that i'm his girlfriend. it's just a normal thing now.
after we get icecream, he would walk me home, giving me a small peck on my cheek, before i get in. sometimes, he would give me a small peck on my lip, but it doesn't happen so often.

i knew how hard we tried to keep our conversations going, it's actually funny. i lied everytime he talked about movies he liked, i'd say, 'i love that movie !' but before saying, i'd search up the title of the movie and read what the movie was about. he'd do the same thing when i talked about TXT's songs. i'm not stupid, so i know when something is wrong or when he's lying.

i acted like a shy girl infront of him after we dated. and i do not like that. i feel like i'm not myself when i'm with him, and that's scaring me. i'm afraid he's not the one. because i want him to be the one.