Is This Even Worth Fighting For?

seventeen

3pm and I'm still yet to even get out of bed. I don't want to be sad, I really really don't want to be but like, cheating is one thing but cheating on me with the same damn girl?
James was only a stupid little kiss, an in the moment kind of thing
Sam, sam completely disrespected me. He did went back time after time only to then have me on his arm 
That entire time he was joined at my hip wasn't because he didn't trust me, it's because he knew that he did 
That entire fucking time

I finally got out of bed throwing on some dance clothes seeing as rehearsals start in 30 minutes
Dance will be good I think
It'll give me time away from all of it
Time for me to clear my head
But if I see Beth, ooh she better fucking run

I walk into the studio to see all of A-Troupe stretching, James looked at me and smiled before that smile dropped, I turned to see where he was looking and to both of our dismay.
Sam had just walked in
"What are you doing here?" I asked, I knew everyone would be listening in and pretending they weren't 
"I'm here to speak to my girlfriend" He said taking a step closer to me but I scoffed moving away
"Your girlfriend is in Studio B" I replied knowing exactly where B-Troupe would be
"Riley she isn't my girlfriend" He said dryly
I turned to him and laughed
"Then what is she Sam? What do you call a girl you sleep with multiple fucking times" I said noticing all of A-Troupe stood in a little crowd
"Can we please talk privately" he asked motioning to the team and I shook my head

"I have nothing else to fucking say to you. Run off and shag Beth" I replied glaring him
"oh wait, that was last night" I replied and he was getting angry that was for certain
"It's not like that" He replied
"Oh yeah? I'm pretty certain it is. Because what did you tell me last night?" I asked tapping my chin thinking
"Multiple time, when I was competing, when I was with the team. You were with her" I replied making his hand form fists with anger

"I couldn't give a fucking rats ass what you do from now on Sam. You're done here" I replied
"Riley it was an accident" He muttered
"How do you accidentally have sex with someone! Multiple fucking times Sam!" I yelled
"And you fucking lied to my faces for god knows how long" I replied as Miss Kate walked in, she looked at me with concern
"You're done" I replied to him walking onto the floor to stretch
He looked as if he was going to say something but I looked away. I didn't want to hear anything else
"Shall I give you all 5?" Miss Kate asked, A-Troupe nodded 
"No" I replied to which everyone looked at me
"Riley" Michelle sweetly said
"I don't need 5 minutes, let's just start please" I said looking at them all one by one 
"Okay Ri" James said before nodding to Miss Kate 

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"Riley, don't shut us out" Thalia said, the girls had been bothering me since the argument to talk about it. We weren't even 10 minutes into practice
"Will you all just stop!" I yelled making everyone including Miss Kate look at me
"Riley we are just trying to help" Michelle said and I shook my head going to my cubby grabbing my back
I could hear everyone yelling after me but I wasn't going to stop for anyone. 

I sat in the field again just looking out at the city in front of me, I've been in this situation before except that one was more PG then this one. I can't believe she snaked her way in again
It takes one fucking type of girl to pull the crap she's been doing
But then again, what does it say about me?
Two boys, two boys I thought loved me cheating on me with her
Am I really worth anything if that is a recurring theme. What's next? 

"Ri" I hear James call, I turn to see him running across the field. I knew he would end up here eventually. He got her a lot sooner then I had anticipated though I won't lie
"Hey" I said as he finally took a seat next to me
"I'm not going to make you talk don't worry" He said and I offered him a soft smile
"Thanks" I replied and he nodded sitting in silence with me 
And honestly, that was all I needed

"Can I say something though?" James muttered a little while later
"What's up" I asked
"He's a fucking dick" He said making both of us burst out laughing
"Yeah you can say that again" I laughed
Beth may have fucked up my only 2 relationships but Karma is coming
And it's coming fucking fast