Is This Even Worth Fighting For?

twentyone

We arrived back at the same spot as dusk hit, it was so beautiful. How all the colours of the sky mixed together and flooded the lake below
It was picture perfect
"Do you want to grab the smore stuff, it's on the back seat" James called after he got the fire properly going
James' smores will always be superior to everyone else's and I know nothing will ever be able to change that opinion
You take the large marshmallow, some milk chocolate and then instead of Graham Crackers, you use Chocolate Chip cookie
"Got it" I called grabbing the grocery bag as going back over to James 

He was laid back on the cushions just enjoying the heat from the fire and I can't blame him. It looked pretty cosy
"Here is your stick" He chuckled handing me on, I looked at him and chuckled
"When are we going to learn to bring our own" I said and he shrugged making us both laugh
I took everything out of the bag and smiled at him
"this is going to be awesome" I smiled handing him a marshmallow 
We began to roast them on the fire and I couldn't help but glance over at James with another smile. This was just like old times, I've tried this entire trip to force myself to try and be alone. To not let these feelings for James rekindle. To work on myself before diving right back in
But I can't 
No matter what it is that we are doing, it just reminds me so much of everything we have done, everything we've been through, everything that happened. No matter what it is, James never gave up on me in fact he is one of the few people that stood by my side the entire time and I couldn't be more happier

Our marshmallows had toasted and we were building out smore now, I looked up at James after I had finished building mine
"Cheers" He chuckled tapping our smores together before we both took a big bite out of them
"You've got a little" I chuckled wiping away the marshmallow from the outside of his lip
I sat on my feet so I was eye level with him as I did so
His deep brown eyes looked at me so carefully as if he didn't want to miss a second
I glanced up at his eyes instantly melting into his gaze with a soft smile playing at both of our lips 
Without a second thought I could feel myself leaning in until I felt James' lips softly pressed against mine
The warmth of his lips taking over my entire face, I placed my hands on his cheek pulling him closer as he did the same with my waist, it was clear neither of us wanted this to end but after a couple of minutes we pulled a part breathless looking at each other once again
I smiled up at him as he happily returned the smiled

"I love you" I whispered before looking up at him again, he looked down at me with the biggest grin and widened eyes
"I love you too Ri" He said before pressing his lips against mine again

Some people will yell at me saying that I'm moving on too soon, I don't know what James and I are but what I do know is that boy has a way with me, he has this affect on me that I can't explain. He knows me better than I know myself and when I'm with with, everything is okay.
Nothing else in this world matters when it is the two of us
That's what I've always loved about James, he cares deeply for everyone he loves. When he spends one on one time with someone, they are his soul focus no matter who it is

James has always had a huge heart, a bigger one then he ever gave himself credit for and I hope one day, my heart is at least half the size of his 

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"Good morning" I heard his sweet morning voice said, I rubbed my eyes opening them to see him staring at me, without a second thought I hid my head in his chest to hide my blush
"Morning" I groggily replied
"I have good news and bad news" He said and I looked up at him worried
"What's wrong?" I asked
"We have to head home today, I looked at the A-Troupe Groupchat this morning while you slept and something happened with Amanda so we have a new addition to the team apparently" James explained 
"what happened to Amanda?" I asked and he shrugged
"Everyone is meeting Miss Kate in Studio A at 2, It's 12 now so we should start heading off soon Ri" He said
"One thing first" I said pulling him back over to me, he looked at me this time a little concerned
I chuckled lightly before kissing him making him smile 
"What was that for?" He asked
"For this weekend, It was definetly what we needed" I said smiling at him before he kissed me again
"What was that for?" I mimicked
"That's for being Riley" He said pecking my lips one more time before getting up leaving my blushing like crazy