Only If She Knew✔️

chapter : 21

"Ok wait for a minute then we will", he said and looked at front thinking about their old moments here. He have always liked this place, he missed visiting here soo much. He noticed one girl making something from sand which made him remember one of their moment

Flashback start

"Sidharth see I made sand castle. It is beautiful na?", Asked Shehnaaz who made a castle from sand. Sidharth controlled his urge to laugh as it looked more like a mountain than a castle but for her happiness he have to agree

"Yes it is very beautiful but incomplete", Sidharth said with a smile

"How?", Shehnaaz asked

"Because prince and princess are left outside. We can't go inside so it is incomplete"Sidharth said thinking that Shehnaaz will make another one then he will talk about building real house for them where they all will live happily.

"Don't worry. Now it is complete hana?', asked Shehnaaz after writing their name on sand and then made heart shape near their couple name. Sidharth smiled seeing her gesture , he don't know from where she get these ideas but these things look so special

"Yes it is", he said and pulled her in hug..he kissed her cheeks and layed on sand to enjoy sunset

Flashback end

"We have many memories here Hana",he asked trying to start conversation to which Shehnaaz hummed without looking at him

"Those were best memories of my life", Sidharth said

"Mine as well. Why you left me? Even if you were forced how can you leave me alone after knowing that I was habitual of your presence", Shehnaaz asked the question which she wanted to ask from a long time, which he couldn't answer. Every time he used to think that atleast he should check but everytime he used to shrug his thoughts thinking about Parminder. He never thought he will betray him like that, atleast he could have tried asking if he want to come back or not

"I never enjoyed there Shehnaaz. Daily I used to miss you and used to think when I will meet you. "Sidharth said to tell her that coming back and contacting her was not option, Shehnaaz tightened her hold on him. Sidharth smiled when he noticed her tightening hug

"Please don't leave me ever again Sidharth. I don't know how I would react", Shehnaaz told her fear to him in low voice. Now she is scared what if someone tried to snatch him from her

"Never", Sidharth replied

"I still can't believe how can he do this with his daughter. How to tell you that how much these people manipulated me", Shehnaaz said with tears, Sidharth nodded knowing that right now Shehnaaz is broken and he need to let her show emotions..if she wants then he is ready to listen her

"Can we get isolated place", Shehnaaz asked to which Sidharth nodded and both stand up. Sidharth gestured Shehnaaz to sit inside car and drove towards his office. Shehnaaz understood that for him this is the safest place where no-one will disturb them. She didn't looked up at his employees with fear of insult. That is her biggest fear after getting enough insults

"Sit", Sidharth asked her to sit on seat and sat on table

"Before you ask. I am comfortable. Now continue", Sidharth said when Shehnaaz was about to ask him if he is comfortable. Shehnaaz smiled and nodded, he can make her smile even when she is mentally broken

"I guess you left on 29 March as one day before you stopped talking. I tried calling you on 28 March but your phone was switched off. On 29 March I came to your house but got to know that you and your family left. That time I took it normal was just hurt that you left somewhere without telling me. Then after few days I got to know I was pregnant. Sidharth I tried every possible way to reach to you but couldn't", Shehnaaz told him and stopped in middle to look at him. Her eyes started to well with tears, again her past is in front of her but it took a U - turn

"I was trying to call you daily but dad said you left for your own good because you were done with me...he said you used me for your own benifits and now you are giving your priority to your career", Shehnaaz said and looked down with tears, Sidharth held her hands and kissed them. Shehnaaz didn't look up because she don't want him to see her crying, if he did then she won't be able to tell him anything when he used to be the one who knew everything about her. Even he know those things which her father and brother don't know.

"I never used you Shehnaaz", Sidharth told and tried forcing her to look at him but Shehnaaz didn't moved. Instead she replied I know and rested her head on his lap. Sidharth slowly moved his hand towards her hair to caress them

"That time Sidharth I told him maybe you all are struck in a big problem and you will contact me but then he showed me that you sell your old house breaking my hopes. Just think about girl what she will think if the guy whom she loved is missing and leaving every trace of his existence?", Shehnaaz asked and looked in his eyes herself . Sidharth nodded understanding her and kissed her forehead, he want her to tell him everything. He don't want her to keep anything inside her heart, he don't like to see her crying but he know if she didn't showed her emotions then she will be depressed, if not depressed then definitely that person whom Sidharth will not like

"I know baba now tell me if you have anything else to say", Sidharth said softly

"Yes I have. Sidharth then I thought maybe you will take admission in same college again to continue studies but there I got nothing but insult that I am characterless who got pregnant before marriage", Shehnaaz said and looked down again . Sidharth clenched his fingers in a fist thinking about insult. How dare people insult her?

"Who were they? How dare they point finger at your character?", Sidharth asked angrily. Shehnaaz smiled and kissed his forehead. From a long time he was trying his best to give her strength, now even she will try her best to give him same. Sidharth closed his eyes feeling peace and to control his anger when Shehnaaz replied

"There were many. I was unable to concentrate on studies because everyone used to hate me and call me by different names. They said it's good that you left. Good boys never marry girls who...who sell themselves", Shehnaaz chocked with tears. Sidharth felt pang inside his heart thinking about this girl and what she went through, he would have burnt them alive if that happened in front of him. He started to feel it difficult to control his tears.

"There was no one whom I could tell about my feelings Sidharth. Then Bhai asked me to leave studies. I didn't knew what to do. Already I faced much insult so I thought to cut myself off from world. That time I was 3 months pregnant. I started having difficulty in walking. Bhai and dad were there but I wanted you.

My badluck you never tried to contact me. Dad asked me many times to abort child but how can I kill my own child Sidharth. I wanted to see him/her. Then after 1½ month my health worsened because of depression and lack of rest. If I knew my behaviour and skipping meals would lead to this I would have atleast tried for my baby.

Doctors asked my dad and brother whom to save me or baby then they asked to save me. I was angry at them for choosing me when I myself wanted to die. They told me they want me in their lives. I didn't spoke with anyone after knowing what I lost

I started to h.... Dislike you because you ruined me. If you were there to care for me and baby then we would be happy Sidharth. Everyone looked at me like I was a criminal who ran from Jail. I thought that staying between 4 walls would be best. Atleast no-one will look at me like that ", Shehnaaz told in hard voice, tears fell from her eyes which Sidharth wiped and asked her to stand. Once she stood up, he pulled her in bone crashing hug

"You were. You are my pride and will be always",he said with tears. Shehnaaz rubbed his back as somewhere she can't blame him. Atleast not after knowing that he was forced to leave her. Instead she should appreciate him that he came back to keep his promise, otherwise he was having many options

"Don't regret Sidharth. It was written in my destiny", Shehnaaz said gaining her strength back

"Am I a part of your destiny?", Sidharth asked

"Yes my loving husband", Shehnaaz replied and smiled because now she is feeling relaxed after talking with Sidharth. Now she is nomore sad, little bit she is but his presence have made that impact that now she can atleast face whatever comes in her way