✅Make me happy {CADE}

Chapter 1: Prologue: Sleepover at Cat's

Jade POV

6:23 PM

Have you ever tried to drive while you're crying? It's not easy at all... I'm barely able to see where I'm going... I was on my way to Tori's house, to ask her help to fix things with Beck. I broke up with him after I found out he was hanging out with Alyssa Vaughn. He claims they are just friends but I know he likes to flirt with other girls, every time I let my guard down... Even if he knows how jealous I am. And it's not like he did anything to get me back since I told him we were over... So a part of me is tempted to be over with him for good this time. But some other part of me just can't let him go... I love him and he loves me... I think. I mean we both told each other that, so I shouldn't have any doubts that we're in love. But I do anyway... It's just... we were so young when we got together and we didn't know one another from very long when we both said we loved each other, so did we really mean it? If yes, and Beck does love me, why does he keep flirting with other girls? And if I do love him why I keep breaking up with him? Why I don't trust him? Why every time we have a fight a part of me just wants to be over with him for good? Maybe we were never really in love in the first place. We were just each other's first girlfriend and boyfriend, so we thought we were. But we weren't.

That makes me cry bitter tears right now, cause if it's true, that means I spent almost two years of my life trying to fix a relationship with someone I was never even in love with.

But no, that can't be. I try to convince myself that I do love him. I mean I was with Beck for two years, so I have to love him and he has to love me back. Right? That's why I have to keep trying to make things work between us (even if deep down I know they aren't working from a long time). It used to be so easy when we were just friends... But as we got together, Beck and I started fighting from the very beginning of our relationship. But we've always find a way to make up. So maybe this is just another fight. But do I really want to keep trying to fix something that continues to break? Even if I'm not sure about it, I've decided that at the moment, yes, I want to.

So yeah, this is how desperate I am to get back together with him right now: I'm willing to ask Vega's help to make peace with Beck. Also I don't really want anyone else from school to see me in this pathetic state. Jade West doesn't cry in front of anyone... Anyone that matters at least. But as I'm just a few houses away from her home, I hear my phone buzzing in my pocket. Normally I would ignore it while I'm driving, but this time I decide to not care and check who texted me. It's a new message from Cat

Reading her last text I start to feel angry at Vega for not minding her businesses. I don't even know if my break up with Beck will be definitive and she already went to tell everyone about it. Well, Cat is not everyone, I know I can trust her, but still... I get another text from Cat asking me if I want to go to her house. So I change my plans. Maybe I don't need Tori's help to fix things with Beck. Maybe I don't need anyone's help. Why should I be the one to make the first move to make peace with him? If he doesn't feel the need to do anything to get me back, maybe I should just let him realize how much he misses me, until he will crawl back to me, begging me to take him back... And if he doesn't... I don't even want to think about it now. I squeeze my eyes for a second and change my destination. I just need to see a friendly face right now. And even if I rarely admit it, the only real friend I ever had is this little bubbly redhead, who cared enough for me to ask me how I was doing right now. A girl who always wanted to be close to me since junior high school: Cat Valentine. I quickly reply to her and she replies back to me immediately