Best (BOY) Friends Forever

Breathe Free

OHM'S POV
Today he once again avoid the friends meeting place, I finished my basketball training and he was not there, I ran to the Nanon's house
Ohm: is nanon home mom?
Mum: yes he came earlier and said he want to be alone, what happened to you?, why all the time fighting with each other
Ohm: no mom we didn't fight, let me talk to him
mum: Take this snacks and milk with you, he didn't eat anything, whats this with this kid
I gave chocolate chip cookies and milk to nan and I grabbed one and munch it, hmmm heaven
Ohm: you are coward nan, you came home without meeting friends why?
Nan: sorry I didn't gave you snack today buddy, I am not feeling well thats why I came home early
Ohm:its okay nanon no problem who is your crush, talk to me, what is in your mind? you're avoiding your friends and how dare you are avoiding me

Nan:it it is... I it is krist, he is so beautiful, so beautiful,yes beautiful

nanon used to repeat the same word if he likes any thing, he repeatedly said "krist is beautiful"
I understand the situation and nanon is gay. I was right about him and I felt betrayed I was with him from kindergarten, never once revealed his sexual orientation, when did he came to know that he is gay?, he was crying and he was looking in the ground as if he was feeling guilty.
Nan:You are close to me in our gang ohm, even you see me differently now and judge me thats why I didn't reveal I am gay and kept this secret to myself.
Please Don't say this to anyone, they may hate me, pls ohm

I hold his cheeks with both my hands and wiped his tears and asked him to look into my eyes

Ohm:Don't cry nanon its not a crime to love, no gender comes to love, I love you as before no change in our friendship, Love is a beautiful feeling nanon, Be proud to show that if you love someone, whatever gender it maybe, boldly first accept and then make others to accept too. I was surprised because you never once talk about your crush or sexual orientation boy, please dont cry it makes me cry too. I am not judging you baby and never will. relax

I hugged him tightly and pat his back, he stopped crying

Ohm: so its Krist, your crush

he nod his head.

Ohm:way to go boy, wait and confirm your feelings first whether krist is just a crush or more than crush and lets think about the other things later

He nod his head and he laid his head on my lap and closed his eyes. I pat his head. He was calm now.

I lied to Nan, I heard in basketball training that krist girlfriend is from another school from his friend ben, who is my basketball team mate. Poor nan is going to be heartbroken. I love him and if I say I love him now, will he accept my love, I hate the hurt feelings in his eyes, I want to see his smile

Ohm: Nan you know I love you I don't want you to see the hurt in your eyes. let me kiss you once like how lovers do, then you say how you feel.

I desperately asked him.He was shocked, shocked is the understatement , he shouted kyaaaaa and his mouth was gaping. I know he won't accept. I know he is not mine, but I can't let him go. I don't want him to see hurt. I know he is not into me but his body reacts to mine, unknowingly. Maybe he is having some feelings for me.

Nan: No ohm, don't do this we are like brothers. Ohm I don't think you like that. You are my friend and my parents and your parents think us like their sons. you are like a bro.....

once he said bro, I want to stop him,
I kissed him in his lip holding his head and I licked his lips with my tongue and ask him for access he was shocked and closed his eyes and lips tightly, I bit his lower lips and he opened his mouth to scold , I gave him a long kiss and he started to kiss back, so I moaned , its like tasting a honey but he pushed me back and shouted

Nan:I love you like a friend, I understand what you're trying to do, you want to protect me because I was there when you're having a hard time but I am a boy like you, strong and can handle my heart broken myself, you're a straight guy so please dont make me guilty for making you what you are not. I know Krist is in relationship, I don't know but unknowingly my legs go to Auditorium to hear the song that heals my heart. I can manage well, dont worry about me and try to concentrate on studies and basketball, hope you understand soon, just analyse with your mind not heart ohm. I am more worried about my sexual orientation and not about my heart, do you understand. I feel that all of you, my parents, your parents, you and our friends are going to treat me differently thats why I am avoiding all of you but you're making things complex ohm. I don't want to drag you into this mess just let me alone for a week I will think about it

Ohm: so you was thinking that you are draging me into this problem before going to sleep, thats why you got a nightmare that I was dragged by quicksand and you want to save me

Nan: yes but. I hmm erm you are a straight guy and you love me like a friend and.  I.    i.     I don't want to hurt you so leave me alone ohm.  I dont need your help.

Ohm: nan I love you and I am not thinking about anything except you must be happy. you're the one who is not understanding the situation. Everyone loves you and they wont hate you for your sexual preference believe me they loves you dearly, your parents, my parents and friends, just give them time and lets take it slow, baby steps, okay and please dont avoid friends and mom. Am I clear, lets handle these things slowly and wisely and not in confusion and haste. okay
lets go for a bar tonight what to you say

Nan: whatever. ( silent for some minutes then walked here and there sighed) give me sometime please ohm don't do things like kissing like lovers. I am already confused and felt alone, please I am worried about you, you're heartbroken and so you think you love me like lover, its not same. If you're gay it's ok but you're straight. why you love a boy when you're not in to boys? try to understand.
Ohm: (sighed) Okay on one condition dont close yourself from me, your parents and our friends. deal?
Nan: okay
I sighed long way to go ohm. Wait baby I will make you mine. I was relieved he worried about gay more and not about heartbroken as I expected. So I am going to make him mine slowly. I fell for him first but I want him to fell deeper for me. forever and forever. Love you babe.