i wrote this back in mid-june, when i thought i was going to publish a different book that wasn't 'déjà vu' and there were dark vibes. i decided to withdraw from that project and focus on something that'll make me laugh, something that'll make me happy. i think my new book 'déjà vu' is just that.
this song is about the eery depth of having loved and lost. it's not just that they moved away or you grew apart. this song, focuses on the su!cide of a beloved, and how you always feel like it was partly your fault, because you could've been there, to stop it from happening.
i've been there before, with an online friend. the last thing they ever told me was 'i guess we'll figure out in the afterlife'. i don't know what happened to them, because they never replied back to my messages nor left me on seen. they never replied back to our other online friend either.
they were depressed and su!cidal, and i really wish i knew they're okay, or at least alive. because, they were someone i was extremely close to, so it hurt letting them go. to this day, i'm honestly not over it and in denial, that they'll come back to me, eventhough it's been a long time and i never got to tell them what my real name was.
after all that, part of me aches. part of me, just doesn't know what to say. they were running up the rooftop and i don't know why. ok, i'm going to cry, so just-
1ST VERSE:
i hope you know, you better know
you know i miss you
i'm on the verge of vacant tears
there's nothing i rather do
than be with you
yet instead, i'm faking fears
the height from here is all too sheer
yet if i were you, i'd erode
maybe i'm wrong about that
i never were you, so how i know?
i can still picture you at the rooftop
you said you'd never dare jump
yet you did, you did
i wish i could rewind time
undo everytime i were too oblivious
to realize you're the only one i'll ever love
loving you was my light, spirit and life
i never wished to lose you
PRE-CHORUS:
everytime you ran, i'd seam dark blue
i could never conceal
i was see through, and so we're you
you washed away, sinking in high tides
i hope it's nice, does the afterlife treat you right?
CHORUS:
my ghost, the only one i'll ever know
your shadow comes back to haunt me
all hail the rituals, maybe they'll bring you back to me
fading dimly, slightly creased from reality
you deserved better
guess you'll never read these letters
2ND VERSE:
it's for the best i guess
here's to all the text messages i've sent
i rather be left on read
i don't want to pretend
while i demise in regret
you always denied the fact
that i left us ruins
you'd constantly defend my actions
even when they were cruel
i knew something was wrong
the second you stopped answering them all
it's like, i'm conversing with a wall
one that'll never budge
one that should've stood tall
yet i left her in ruins
and you never dared to consult me
about your sudden moving
PRE-CHORUS:
everytime you ran, i'd seam dark blue
i could never conceal
i was see through, and so we're you
you washed away, sinking in high tides
i hope it's nice, does the afterlife treat you right?
CHORUS:
my ghost, the only one i'll ever know
your shadow comes back to haunt me
all hail the rituals, maybe they'll bring you back to me
fading dimly, slightly creased from reality
you deserved better
guess you'll never read these letters
BRIDGE:
running was fun for you
especially after mischief
that's would you said
out of the blue, on the roof
what more can i do
other than tell you that i love you
and you left me too soon
did you have to?
all my words pour down, soaked in grim defeat, a little too late
you knew me, more than i knew myself
you were, you dragged yourself into my hell
and i watched you burn
burn down, i did nothing
OUTRO:
do you know, you better know
you know i miss you
It turns out that after 2 years, she came back to me. She returned my texts and she' s okay! This song still slaps hard, because she thought I forgot about her. 2 years later and I continued to remember her all too well. I love her and glad she's okay :')
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