𝐒𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐌𝐢𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐲 ( 𝑺𝒐𝒏𝒈𝒘𝒓𝒊𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝑺𝒆𝒔𝒔𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔 )

Maybe I'm The Problem

WRITTEN: 01/ 23/23

As everyone living in 2023, I listen to 'Anti-Hero' everyday, all the time. Bonus is I'm a hardcore Swiftie, as everyone probably knows by now. So I really do listen to Anti-Hero . . . a lot.

For me, personally, the first verse, first pre-chorus, chorus and 2nd pre-chorus just slap so fucking hard. 

I did not write this song, trying to reference Anti-Hero. I wrote this about my own insecurities over opening up to friends over my issues and me. Maybe I'm The problem, because I am a problem. 

I'm not perfect, no one is, but I've only realized how fucked up I am. I've got abandonment issues, an odd way of processing grief because I don't fucking cry. I rarely do, and only because I used to be a crybaby and my mom said I'm too grown to cry all the time. Then I just trained myself to hold back tears, and I really can't cry anymore.

Besides Thanksgiving and the burial, the one day I cry over my Abuelo's passing was on Christmas Eve, at the dinner table. Everyone was happy and laughing, and that's when it begun to sink in. Abuelo really is gone, so I sobbed . . . a lot. It was my Aunts birthday, and I feel like I was ruining it. 

Luckily my 4 y/o cousin asked me to play with her and for a while, I was way less sad. *coughs in ajr* SHUT UP AND JUST ENJOY THIS FEELING. uH- 

I did cry a bit yesterday. It's just everything. So I wrote this song-

1ST VERSE:

When I break down, I can be such a burden

What I have to say isn't important

You're someone worthy and I'm not deserving

Me and my issues, slowly lurking

It's all so stupid

I bet you don't give a shit anyways

You shouldn't have to

Please, just go on with your day

PRE-CHORUS:

Maybe I'm the problem

One day you'll see

Maybe I'm the problem

One day you'll hate me

CHORUS:

Maybe I'm the problem

I rarely make any sense

With my endless vents and regrets

I'm just a failure and a reject

It's all better left unsaid

From now on, I'll just bottle it in

2ND VERSE:

I know you wish the old me could back

She was so much easier

Now everything about me is a blur

To you, it's not fair

You shouldn't need to be there

You don't need this negativity

And you don't need me

I should probably get to leaving

PRE-CHORUS:

Maybe I'm the problem

One day you'll see

Maybe I'm the problem

One day you'll leave me

CHORUS:

Maybe I'm the problem

I rarely make any sense

With my endless vents and regrets

I'm just a failure and a reject

It's all better left unsaid

From now on, I'll just bottle it in

BRIDGE:

Me and my issues

And all my scheming, it's crazy

I know you agree

I should stop, but I can't

It's wrong, leading you to foreign land

What I don't understand

Is why root for the anti-hero?

Here to take away all your happiness

Here, to shy away from broken promises

I started this, I wanted this

And one day, you'll end it

BREAKDOWN:

Maybe I'm the problem

One day you'll see

Maybe I'm the problem

One day you'll hate me

Maybe I'm the problem

One day you'll leave me

CHORUS:

Maybe I'm the problem

I rarely make any sense

With my endless vents and regrets

I'm just a failure and a reject

It's all better left unsaid

From now on, I'll just bottle it in