𝐒𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐌𝐢𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐲 ( 𝑺𝒐𝒏𝒈𝒘𝒓𝒊𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝑺𝒆𝒔𝒔𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔 )

Rollercoaster

WRITTEN: 01/25/23

um, yeah, this was a 'in the moment' kind of a song that i wrote... i'm not proud. i was pretty self-inflicted, i was an idiot tbh... in reality, i let HER down. sorry-

** outdated explaination

this one was difficult to write, as i just wrote and wrote. i just wanted to pour it all out, as songwriting and music is the most therapeutic thing for me. i've been listening to billie eilish, halsey, the weeknd, miley cyrus, girl in red and alessia cara for the past few hours and i just love music sm <33 ( that reminds me, i'm going to listen to ava max's new song next ) 

i wholly reccommend 'you let me down' by alessia cara. it's free therapy. other songs off her latest album are literally free therapy ( box in the ocean, clockwork, voice in my head, fishbowl ). 'growing pains' would be a good song to go before 'you're on your own kid' by taylor swift too. 

OH, SO ABOUT THIS SONG-

yk when someone let's you down, but completely disregarding that, you still care so much for them. it's literally so stupid, and you'll go through slight self-loathing because of it. logically, it's so wrong, but in your heart, it's right. 

" move on " nah, i can't, but i'll try. THIS IS ME TRYING-

ah, well, cheers to 2023 :) because . . . i'm loving it! last year, i hated heartbreak, knowing better, changing etc. and i just wanted it to go away, but now in 2023? like, it's so inspiring and i'm writing songs like crazy! I. LOVE. IT. all of this is my songwriting fuel 🔥

btw shout out to @whereveryoustray because in a way, she helped write this song. let me explain-

so i was looking back to 'bittersweet' and the comments, as i was planning on referencing to that song. i saw @whereveryoustray 's comments and i was like " this is good, i could literally write a verse with this " and i did. her comments inspired some of the bridge and the first line of the 2nd verse.

uh, i'm out of time to continue thoroughly explaining my songwriting process, so i'll shut up now. song says it all, as always ✨💙

INTRO:

i literally hate myself right now

why did i write this? ( just, why?)

1ST VERSE:

though it was just a song

i swore i'd die for you

and you told me you would too

i'm not selfish, i know you've got issues

but this bullshit is no longer blithe

and i don't know what to do

so i'm reaching out, terrified

message in a bottle, no stop sign

PRE-CHORUS:

i can't even recognize

whether loving you is wrong or right

it's been such a long time

well, i'm not giving up without a fight

yeah, i'm not giving us up without a fight

CHORUS:

and all i wanna do

is melt with your cold heart

so allow me to prove

that i'd still welcome you with open arms

eventhough you've torn me apart

i never thought you could break my heart

and since then, my world's been dark

eventhough you've torn me apart

i'd still welcome you with open arms

2ND VERSE:

we all have those days

don't we, babe?

the kind when i can't even recognize

whether loving you is wrong or right

hasn't it been such a long time?

well, i'm not giving up without a fight

yeah, i'm not giving us up without a fight

so blow me away, high up the sky

leave me electrified

slit my love with a blade

you said it yourself, we're not over

so quit playing these games

CHORUS:

and all i wanna do

is melt with your cold heart

so allow me to prove

that i'll still welcome you with open arms

eventhough you've torn me apart

i never thought you could break my heart

and since then, my world's been dark

eventhough you've torn me apart

i'll still welcome you with open arms

BRIDGE:

its literally so stupid, this feeling of needing closure

when we're clearly not yet over

someone please get me off this rollercoaster

round and round, always the same

levitate me towards the ground

i've dealt with enough heartbreak

i hate pretending like that

when you're driving me mad

oh, you wouldn't understand

how pretending like that

when you're driving me mad

was never in my plans

BREAKDOWN/PRE-CHORUS:

i can't even recognize

whether loving you is wrong or right

it's been such a long time

well, i'm not giving up without a fight

yeah, i'm not giving us up without a fight

CHORUS:

and all i wanna do

is melt with your cold heart

so allow me to prove

that i'll still welcome you with open arms

eventhough you've torn me apart

i never thought you could break my heart

and since then, my world's been dark

eventhough you've torn me apart

i'll still welcome you with open arms