𝐒𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐌𝐢𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐲 ( 𝑺𝒐𝒏𝒈𝒘𝒓𝒊𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝑺𝒆𝒔𝒔𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔 )

Natural Disaster

Written: April 12th, 2024

Genre: Haven't decided yet. I could hear this being a pop song with minor punk influences banger or a pop ballad cause I'm versatile like that 🤪

I've been writing SO MUCH these days, I write the most when I'm in misery. Then when I'm somewhat happy, I can barely pen anything. I guess my songwriting streak is the bright side of these on-going, never ending depressive episodes, right? It doesn't help that I'm streaming the same three songs on repeat, but at least that one Avril song inspired another song in the process.

As for this song, it just randomly came to mind when I felt so depressed, sorrowful and hopeless, that my heart felt as if literally froze and it just wasn't very warming anymore. I thought to myself how I've never felt such a heartache like this before because I seriously haven't. 2020 and 2022 may have been worse years, I mean at the start of 2022 I didn't even want to live anymore. I had a slight intrusive thought of that back in this 2024 January when I thought of overdosing and never waking up. I'm most definitely not su!cidal, so don't worry about that. Depressed, anxious and hopeless, feeling like it'll never improve though? Yeah.

I tossed a few Faded Daydreams references in this song, please point them out if you find them :)

1ST VERSE:

I've never felt such a heartache

Cold and frozen, I can't shake

It was a 'make or break'

A game of love and hate just to push you away

Loving you is sacrificed as my biggest mistake

And our story is one to eliminate

Press the backspace, word by word led astray

CHORUS:

Nothing is kept as decent secrecy

If it falls from my leaves

And if it grows from my heart, it'll tear you apart

Planted in my mind is a world gone dark

It's a natural disaster I was made to master

I'm a natural disaster

2ND VERSE:

We're demons disguised as angels

I never learned from former fables

We could be good, but not good for eachother

And it's the 'what if's' that hover

From now on I won't be a bother

In a few months I'll love another

CHORUS:

Nothing is kept as decent secrecy

If it falls from my leaves

And if it grows from my heart, it'll tear you apart

Planted in my mind is a world gone dark

It's a natural disaster I was made to master

I'm a natural disaster

BRIDGE:

I'm worse than an earthquake and an hurricane

Even tornadoes eventually let go, you know I won't

It's a storm of snow I'll circulate

And the star I was fell from outer space

Every ounce of light right into restrain

Fallen, to never levitate

Now all I ever do is hesitate

CHORUS:

Nothing is kept as decent secrecy

If it falls from my leaves

And if it grows from my heart, it'll tear you apart

Planted in my mind is a world gone dark

It's a natural disaster I was made to master

I'm a natural disaster