𝐒𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐌𝐢𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐲 ( 𝑺𝒐𝒏𝒈𝒘𝒓𝒊𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝑺𝒆𝒔𝒔𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔 )

Love Don't Exist

Demiromantic Problems *dun dun* seriously though, that's the literal theme ( i think. jk, ofc it is. )

It's just that i wrote two songs by the same title 'Love Don't Exist' and they're veryyyy different from eachother. the original one was written many months ago, i can't even remember when tbh. it took inspiration from the line " love don't exist when you live like this " of a bruno mars. obviously the concept of his song isn' t what i wanted to write about, because no, but i really felt that lyric y'know?

i know what the lyric actually means, but as a demiromantic, it slapped differently than how i'm supposed to comprehend it. the other 'Love Don't Exist' is purely from the depths of my heartbroken imagination and ig more true to the song it's title references?? ( yeah, not really. ) 

this one however, is written right from my heart. it was originally a vent space, but became much more. i repeated the title 'Love Don't Exist' because that's how it feels like as a demiromantic. yesterday i was really believing it, so writing this is therapy.

as a young girl, i loved love and thought that your first love would be the one you'd marry, because forever is forever. i always knew the person i'd marry would be someone i knew for a long time, as i couldn't feel strong romantic attraction to a stranger or someone i barely knew. in elementary, i knew i was different than everyone else. middle school only proved that. how i love, isn't a choice.

i found myself in a place where love don't exist the way i imagined it for years. i yearn for a different kind of love no irl teen seems to want. all i've witnessed and overheard is that they want is making out and sex. wtf?? no no, i want so much more. ahh, no, i'm venting-

i think i used to be anti-romantic(?) or tried to sound like it during middle school, but honestly i never was. i wish i wasn't, but i'm a hopeless romantic, and it's taken a lot for me to admit it. i have no one, it's so sad *sobs* 

1ST VERSE: 

When I was young

I couldn't wait to fall in love

It was all I dreamed of

Call me a hopeless romantic

I thought love was forever

'Til forever became never

Cause for me, Love Don't Exist

Oh, no it don't

PRE-CHORUS:

How do you think I feel?

I'm breathing, but nothing's real

All the lyrics

Was it all a myth?

CHORUS:

Love don't exist when you live like this

Love don't exist when you were my bliss

Love don't exist if I can't live without you

Love don't exist, when you're my shade of blue

Love don't exist after all we've been through

Love don't exist when you left too soon

2ND VERSE:

I gaze from afar

Admiring every couple

Kissing at the park

It seems as Love exists

Just not for me

Oh, how unlucky

PRE-CHORUS:

How do you think I feel?

I'm breathing, but nothing's real

All the lyrics

Was it all a myth?

CHORUS (2):

Love don't exist when you live like this

Love don't exist when you were my bliss

Love don't exist when you're his

Love don't exist when I won't be missed

I'm long gone, far into sheer distance

Fuck love, cause it don't exist

No, Love doesn't exist

BRIDGE:

Love Don't Exist

For me, it always slips

Everyone I love

Swerves off and fades in

I fall down from above

Right from heaven

Cause their love burns like hell

To them, I'm never enough

Though they only meant well

Push always comes to shove

I can't help but to pity myself

BREAKDOWN:

Cause what is love?

Will it ever exist for me?

CHORUS:

Love don't exist when you live like this

Love don't exist when you were my bliss

Love don't exist if I can't live without you

Love don't exist, when you're my shade of blue

Love don't exist after all we've been through

Love don't exist when you left too soon

OUTRO:

Love Don't Exist

Whether it's her, him or them

Who let's go, leaving me all alone

Love Don't Exist

Oh, no it don't

No, it don't