Honey // A.I (completed)

thirty-six

< Monday 16, 2022 >

{ Ashton }

I got back from my morning run and walked in the house. It was dead silent, telling me Holland still hadn't gotten out of bed.

Holland hasn't been out of bed since the wedding. The morning after is when it hit her that her family didn't come. What sucks is that I don't even know how to help her.

I headed upstairs to our room and quietly walked in. Holland was awake but just laying in bed and staring at nothing,

"Good morning honey" I smiled, leaning down and pecking her lips, "How'd you sleep?"

All she did was shrug, making me internally sigh,

"Okay, well, I'm gonna hop in the shower then I'll make us some breakfast" I told her,

"Not hungry" she mumbled lowly,

"You've got to eat Holls. You've barely eaten" I sighed, "Why don't you get in the shower with me?"

Holland rolled her eyes but slowly sat up in bed and went into the bathroom. I internally cheered and followed behind.

I turned the shower on then helped Holland undress. Once she stepped in, I undressed and joined her. As soon as I stepped in, Holland wrapped her arms around my waist and laid her head against my chest. I wrapped my arms around her and just held her,

"I'm always here for you baby. No matter what. I'm always here to talk and to listen. Just let me know what you need and I'll do it" I whispered. I felt her nod and pull back,

"Can you wash my hair?" she asked me in the smallest voice,

"Of course I can" I nodded and grabbed her shampoo.

After I washed her hair, I did mine, and then we washed bodies and hopped out. I dried off some then went and grabbed us some clothes. Once we were both dressed, Holland tried to get back in bed,

"Nope. I'm sorry Holls but you're coming downstairs" I told her. She pouted but gave in. I can't let her just lay in bed.

Holland took off and laid on the couch as I went into the kitchen. I really didn't want her laying around but at least it was the couch and not our bed.

I started working on breakfast, glancing over at Holland every now and then. She was just staring at the turned off tv.

I understand Holland is having a rough time- trust me. And I know it's harder because it's not that one person couldn't come or didn't come, it was the her WHOLE family didn't come. They willingly did not come to the wedding. That will destroy someone.

Instead of forcing her to eat at the kitchen table, I carried breakfast over to the couch. I just had one plate for us to share since I knew she wouldn't eat much.

I held the plate as she sat up and curled into my side, accepting the bite I was offering,

"Hey" I lightly spoke, "Mike invited us over tonight and I told them we were coming"

She nodded. Mike had invited us all over for but before we leave for Mexico tomorrow. But he also said, maybe it'd help Holland.

The boys knew what was going on. I called Calum last night in panic mode because Holland hadn't moved all day.

I took a few bites and tried to offer Holland more, but she denied. Once the plate was empty, I sat it on the coffee table and held Holland.

"Is there anything you wanna talk about? I'm worried about you Holls" I sighed, kissing her head,

"What's there to talk about? They didn't show up! That's that" she spit, flying out of my arms and standing in front of me, "It's so fucking stupid. They don't come to the wedding because it's not in the fucking church in which I got fucking assaulted!"

This was her breaking point and I knew it,

"I know honey. I know. It's not fair. But that shows you who they really are as people. We can still have contact if you want, but we can also cut them off. I don't want this to sound like I'm hating on them or trying to make you do something, but if they really loved you, they would've put the differences aside and been there" I spoke,

"I'm going back to bed" she simply stated and walked upstairs. I didn't follow her because I knew she just needed to be alone.

I let out a sigh and got off the couch, carrying our empty plate to the kitchen. I rinsed it off and went to put it in the dishwasher but then noticed everything in the dishwasher was clean. Usually Holland empties the dishwasher but she hadn't- which isn't that big of a deal.

Once I emptied it and filled it again, I went to head upstairs but stopped at the open laundry room. It had two baskets of dirty clothes to be washed. Now I know Holland is really down. Holland's favorite thing is doing laundry. I have no idea why, but she loves it.

I got laundry going then finally went upstairs. As I approached our room, I could hear Holland crying and talking to someone. At first, I wasn't going to enter, but it's hard not to when your girl is sobbing.

As I entered, Holland's eyes looked to me then down at the phone in front of that was on speaker,

"That was supposed to be one of the best days of my life and all I wanted was my family there with me. Instead, you didn't come. I understand that you don't like that it wasn't in a church but I'm still your daughter and you're supposed to be there" Holland spit,

"Holland, you know we don't support anything except for what we've learned in the church" I heard her mom speak,

"Well try too" Holland sassed,

"We can't and you know that. We told you when you started dating Ashton, it's us or him. As long as you are with him you won't have us"

My heart plummeted,

"I can't Mom. I love him. I love him more than I can explain. I've never loved anyone how I love him"  Holland spoke, staring right at me,

"Then you don't get us" her mom spoke,

"That's perfectly fine. At least I have someone who loves me no matter what, unlike you all" Holland snapped,

"Goodbye Holland. Don't call again"

Holland hung up the phone then collapsed on our bed in full tears. I rushed over, pulling her into my arms,

"I'm so fucking sorry. This is all my fault" I spoke, kissing her head over and over. She pulled back so fast,

"It is not your fault Ashton" she told me, "Not at all. It's mine but I don't regret choosing you. Yes, it hurts they don't want me anymore, but you mean more to me"

I nodded and just hugged her,

"Can I ask how your feeling now that you've talked to your mom?" I questioned, letting Holland settle in my lap,

"Relieved. I mean, I'm still sad but I feel relieved now that I've talked to them. It clears things up. They don't even feel bad about it, so why should I"

I nodded,

"You wanna go to Mike's still? We can stay here if you don't wanna go out" I asked,

"I want to go. I think I need it rather than sitting here like I've done the past two days"

I nodded,

"Let's get dressed"

****

Holland was a totally different person now that she's talked and got some closure. She's all smiles right now and hanging out off to the side with the girls. I'm still keeping an eye on her though, just in case those emotions want to make themselves present,

"She looks okay" Luke spoke,

"She's got closure" I smiled, "She's gonna be okay"